#nova's thoughts

They were pretty fun games + I was playing really well on D.Va yipeee :D

Kinda wishing I played more mizuki tho- Actuallyit wa sproably better if I didn't cause I would have gottento distracted 😭 like I was being to gay fir his voice in one game, it broke me & Idk wtf I was doing for a bit in the game (lol i'ma regreat typing that tomorrow when i re-read this when Im not as sleep deprived XD)

Also I fucking love my team in one of the games I had in Colosseo the DPS did their job & omg the suports jdjdbdjdj they kept our asses ALIVE it was such a nice game, especially after some games where the temates were yk...in the but fuck middle of nowhere and constantly dying and yiu cant do shit cause they just go in one by one to die jejdjdjdjdj

Omg I forgot I was watching a ren stream cause hes just playing the bass and then he spoke & I got jump scared while typing jdjdjjdjdjdjd

It consumes me 😭😭😭

Omg no I got the map that I have trauma on jejdjdjdj, I got basically gang banged by the WHOLE team, idk wtf I did. I was just a little guy playing bap 😭 they also just left my mercy their traumatized. Like they knew she was their and she rezed me so like wtf bro 😭

what if the light that you see when you die is the light of a hospital room? as in, you're being reborn. 

and that's the reason why babies cry when they're born. 

they're simply remembering everything from their past life, including the fact that they died, and that makes them upset. and as babies grow older, they forget everything from their past life. 

I’m awake for some reason, and this gave me some time to think on things that have happened this year. I will ramble a bit

First off is frustration, I don’t know about others, but there are just some days that I’ll go from kind to wanting to rip your head off. the comment can be so minor, but it is infuriating. I don’t understand frustration like this even though I go through it constantly. It usually stems from sarcastic or joking comments when asking for a serious opinion. but the frustration doesn’t release each time which confuses me. But I realize that I’m holding in anger again, and I know that’s very bad, but I don’t want to let it out and accidentally hurt someone else you know? I’ve been told before that life is too short to be getting angry at everything, but I can’t help it. and constantly getting angry makes me feel horrible but I can’t stop myself.