#notyourhero

I won’t be held back with you anymore. I gave you myself. Your presence and our future has haunted me and I was ready to continue to address it with patience and time as I sat on the side. And you couldn’t give it the time of day.

So I had to walk away.

I know our past has damage but I was slowly working on overcoming it. And you choose to hold on to it while creating new damages that affected me alone. And I never even brought those to your attention because to me I was looking at the bigger picture.  And it wasn’t given the time of day.

So I had to walk away.

Every night that I laid down and every morning that I woke up and countless times during the day I was haunted…and thought it meant we had something undeniable.  But while you were working on you, you failed to see me. Who I am becoming and the person that I am today. I was altered by this summer.

I am happy and at peace and wish you the same. I’m sorry to see this come to an end. I wished it was different but I wish and hope no more…for as I said: we all have the ability to control our own destiny. And my destiny is awaiting me , I will not wait for it.

Today was for you…my past and future was for you. And today I wasn’t given the time of day.