#notnow

Writing should be cold and lonely btw. In this way it is a sexual act

Next person who goes to refer to the setting of my project as 'magic school' is getting shot through the throat btw

Started having a deeply mentally ill one until I remembered that I literally have friends who will take it upon themselves to call me at a random 3 pm and ask me if I want them to buy me enoki mushrooms because they remembered I said I liked them one time and then show up at my house with that and also an Asian egg tart I've never tried before just because they wanted me to try it and 'it's for support' (this was today). And I have friends who will get so unnerved when I mention my eating schedule that they'll offer to send me money to get food if not just directly do it and well yes it's embarrassing and yes the money is getting sent back immediately but it still elicits that degree of care. And I have friends who will see me crashing out over my writing and will take it upon themselves to draw gorgeous art of my characters and help me fall in love with them all over again. And I have friends I could be a better or more attentive friend to but who still get me stickers from every comic con they go to and put me in their tomodachiverse and send me updates on what I'm doing. And I have friends who like me so much and I like them too so genuinely what is there to even complain about... what else could the point of it all possibly be #loved