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It was really fun actually, he was really nice and constantly made me laugh or smile. Something I was lacking over the past months. He’s really cool and we like the same shit. We went out a couple of times, yada yada , we were taking it slowly and today he decided it was best to just stop and remain as friends.

To be honest, it wasn’t a big surprise, I knew he still had feelings for his ex but what surprised me was my own reaction.. I was calm and didn’t got sad or mad. I took it in a cool way, I don’t know. He always made me feel really well with myself and accepted, like I never got to feel with others before. My feelings for him are still fresh but sort of strong and even tho it sucks he doesn’t feel the same way totally I’m glad this happened, that I met him. I didn’t gained a boyfriend or anything of the sort but gained a really cool friend.

I think what’s holding back any kind of sadness after today is the thought of “us” still being a chance (even if a really small one) , Summer is ahead and who knows what can happen. We can grow closer, we can just remain friends, we can go separate ways, who knows? 

All I know, if anything grows out of this it will be something worth it and amazing for both and if not I will know I gained a good friend and someone I can count on always.