#notacomplaint

Why did God create sleep? I don't understand. I mean we are basically "dead" for a certain amount of time every single night (or day depending on if you're napping). Why does no one else find this weird and kind of scary!? You are literally dead to the world when you sleep, totally unconscious of the things around you.

It's not only that, but the fact that I hate missing out on things. And yes most nights I can convince myself by 3 or 4 am that all my friends are asleep so I should too because I'm not missing out. But then there are those times where I think about how there is a whole world out there and in some places of it there are still many things happening throughout the nights. I want to experience the world. I want to stay up late and make memories with friends because we are too delirious to properly function - which makes life all the more fun! I want to curl up with a good movie at night when the chaos of my day has finally settled. Or sit with Jesus and read the Bible or reflect on His love. Or cuddle all night with my best friend/Significant Other (who is kind of non-existent right now). Or go on a picnic under the stars. Or have fun in my day and do hw at night. Or go for a moonlit stroll by the ocean shore. Or watch fireworks light up the night sky at like 3 am (who would have fireworks at 3 am?) Or go travel the world. Or see the northern lights Or just hang out with good friends by a campfire laughing the night away and singing disney tunes or whatever fun songs come to mind. Or just sit or walk with a good friend and have a late night talk.  SLEEP IS OVERRATED .... There are so many more things I could with my life without sleep. So I stay up all night as much as I can but really? what's the difference if I am just sitting in a dorm on my computer all night? That's not really experiencing the world... so I may as well just be sleeping!  But I hate sleep. Besides I can still change lives and have awesome conversations at night on my computer with others who might be up and feel lonely, who need a friend.  I think the thing I hate the most about staying up all night though... Is the fact that I can't actually sleep at 5:30 or 6:30 in the morning ... even for just an hour... because I hit my second wind and am not really "sleepy" anymore... even though I never truly FEEL sleepy anyways. 

I have to work at 8:00 am. Usually when I do stay up past 4, I like to go to sleep around 7:30 am. but now that is a problem since I work so early!  This struggle is real guys!