gay

what

gay,

i wanna play video games with him again sooo baaad. i know that if i try really hard i can beat him. i was just feeling bad because i made him cry! i basically let him win! i wanna play again!!!

and you know. its fun playing video games with another kid. another mean kid

wh

IS jellie mean? does he think im mean?

are we friends or does he hate me?

UGH what an asshole

although. hes been less and less of an asshole lately. i mean not to me. i mean we dont even talk come to think of it. apparently he made friends with my gaster though? which is weird, considering. i guess its a sign of progress? i put that weird dinosaur thing in my dresser cause it feels weird having it ugh

if anyone makes fun of her font name im gonna fucking deck them.

i really really really didnt want any brothers or sisters, especially ones that are gonna be living with me. i said that over and over. i dont think i said it out loud that much but in my head. but the things i thought were gonna happen, didnt happen. again.

it was harder to trust than i wanted it to be, and idk if thats normal or not. seems like its a normal thing if im going by cartoons and sitcoms with new moms or dads.

i kept thinking of it like... trying to be a replacement, but, hes completely different anyway so that was kind of stupid of me to do in the first place. or that like, he just wasnt gonna like me. maybe id swear too much or id get in the way. or get worse. idk. it hasnt happened, whatever i was afraid of.

hes actually way more put together than any of them, i guess. that sounds mean, but, its just in my head. i havent seen him make any dumb decisions yet. i should watch more closely