#not sunk

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Two more movies tonight- project almanac (which we both enjoyed finding confounding and nonsensical) and Troll 2 (oh. Oh my). More to the point, your hands sliding me to you to cuddle, your fingers tracing figure eights on my hip the way I stroke your ribs, and pulling that belt loop towards you while I'm falling asleep. Mm. Your hand finding mine repeatedly- your thumb stroking mine. You'd squeeze and snuggle me close and I'd melt into you. Cause I'm dumb. Or in love. Or dumb. This is going to suck when it ends again. When he loses sight of land again and starts throwing things overboard. And it's me and I wait around patiently to be fished back out. I don't think that will happen, tho- he still apologizes for that week where we didn't see each other, the three days we didn't talk. When you sit up to get a drink and lean down to kiss me, I shiver. And when you lean into me when you reorient on the bed, and offer to split up the mattress to keep me overnight, and pull my body to yours to kiss, I shake. you just make me shake. You're making those sentences that make me sound like your girlfriend again. I'm trying to not get all caught up, but it's practically impossible. And I warned you that I'd you flexed the flirts at me, I'd flex back, and there was no way of knowing i wouldn't catch feelings. You have feelings, tho. You just don't want to own up to them because of your ex. "I'm trying to say..." "you're trying to let me down easy. 'You're nice kid, don't come back' and the like" and you *looked* at me, and said "no, I have this great affection for you". And we went back to cuddles and kisses and it got so much better. It's gonna suck eventually. Until then I am so much happier than I thought I could be.