#not broken

Need some War Rock to grit your teeth and bang your head to?

I went to McDonald’s today and guess what…

Yes i did end up watching switched at birth instead of something else

Okay, yesterday I was not feeling as well as I would have liked so kept to just replying and whatnot instead of writing and posting new stuff. I gotta take care of me after all.

Today, tech and my brain and time willing, will see a few updates.

1: Howling Witch Chapter 10. That is edited and ready, I just need to fight with my touchpad to copy, paste, put in dividers, and links...or hopefully find my mouse.

2: Scorpio will have a new installment. Late Valentines Day thing, sort of. You will see.

3: Super Soldier Theater has the poll still up for about a day and a half as of this posting. It may also be getting a side short series as discussed on one of my reblogs.

4: Pet Chaos will hopefully be getting written.

You’re Not Broken — This Emptiness Is Trying to Tell You Something

 “Nothing’s wrong.  The lights are just off.”

Here’s something most people never hear:

Feeling empty doesn’t mean your life is failing. It doesn’t mean you’re broken. And it doesn’t mean you need to urgently fix yourself.

Sometimes emptiness shows up when life has been “okay” for a long time — but you haven’t really checked in with yourself.

Imagine your inner world like a room. The furniture is fine. The walls are fine. Nothing is damaged.

The lights are just off.

You don’t panic over that. You don’t tear the room apart. You simply notice the darkness.

And strangely enough, even noticing it without judgment can release a bit of pressure.

This reflection is not about solutions. It’s about awareness. And awareness, sometimes, is already enough.

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Another body horror eldritch thought had to be quickly sketched to leave my body. Third age Mairon/Sauron has been on my mind for a while. What is he like, how is that dark lord shape embodied in his day-to day life, just before that Ring hits the Lava and he can finally leave the plane of existence in Middle-Earth?

As in my last piece The Seduction of Mairon, young Mairon is drawn to Melkor who revealing a bloody slit mouth to him, asking: "Do you think I am beautiful?" like the Japanese legend of the Kuchisake-onna.

This legend about wrath and "marred beauty" inspired me to analyse this legend through the lens of Tolien's Dark Lords. They cast themselves out because they know they are diffeent and are no longer willing to fulfill standards they did not have any say in when established. They embody rejection of norms, while creating their own dark paradigms.

My head canon is that Mairon was attracted to a Melkor when appearing in a twisted, version of "beauty". Even mocking it. This eldritch mockery of beauty was like an exit sign for Mairon. Melkor could give him new paradigms and a place to truly belong. Unconditionally.

So in the third age, Mairon may be tired, exhausted, but he has nothing to loose after the ability to shapeshift has left him. This form shows his history, the scar that Huan left is still there, his formerly pointed ears from embodying as Annatar now remain "incomplete" as he would say it, reminders of good and bad times in Ost-in-Edhil.