#non-optimal machine

I'm planning to use Tumblr to be a bit more grounded so... Having to drop from three streams a week to two really bites (laughs) I'm in an incredibly fortunate situation right now and get to devote *a lot* of time to developing my social media presence and trying to be a full time content creator, but I just can't manage time for shit I love streaming, I stream around two hours per session- I know that seems like a bit too little, but then I have my post-stream crash afterwords for like minimum an hour bc sitting at my desk that long and talking hurts bad (laughs) and I need the menty-B. The rest of my time is fulled by me me struggling to edit, eeking out maybe a couple shorts for the upcoming week, attempting to draw while telling myself I should do more editing, working on my first cover song while I tell myself I should be editing, and researching for my longform YT videos while telling myself I should be editing. Writing this out, I think maybe I beat myself up too much for not editing (laughs) But it's important!! And I just can't seem to make myself do it regularly. I struggle to work... I don't think I'm suited to the standard 40 hour work day (is anyone?) so I don't strive to do it while I work on this, usually working 5-6 hours a day instead. So in the interests of growing outside of twitch, I drop a day of streaming (laughs) But it sucks!! I like streaming and talking to everyone! And I hate editing!!! And I think... if I were rich, then I wouldn't have to do any of the parts I don't like, I could just outsource it to someone else and pay them fairly. But I'm not rich, my family is not rich, and so I actually have to work at the thing that I want to make my job one day (laughs)