#noah update

It's actually so over, one of the players that I talk to sometimes put his winning game card over my phone right as I had scrolled away really fast

yeah i'm just gonna go ahead and start off by apologizing for going m.i.a. again unannounced </3

i once again (surprise, surprise) got into a mood where everything i wrote just felt blah, i was pressuring myself with deadlines, sucked the joy out of writing all together and, in the end, decided to delete tumblr and give myself the time to reset. i think i've discovered writing truly comes to me in waves, and that's perfectly okay !! but i need to be gentle with myself when i'm in these slumps instead of spiraling over how i must be disappointing everyone by not pumping out fics. like girl! it's just fanfic! it's not that serious! calm down you're not even getting paid!!

writing is meant to be for my enjoyment and slowly, i've been unlearning all the stress i've put into it to reclaim that joy! so, with a (tentative?) return, just wanted to stop in and give an update that hopefully, fingers crossed, i will be slowly getting back into the groove of things.

i've got a lot to catch up on, but for now, i will be active (:

I’m nervous about today, I present my app alongside my group of 4 to about 12 employers and there’s one specifically that I want to get hired by.

I want to work in this industry, I’m scared to but I want it damn it.

I hope, I HOPE they might take me one. This is a crazy cool esports company that I just...I would love to be my first job in web development, if not that’s fine. If I could get ANYTHING I’d be happy but just man...if I had a choice lol it would be this company.

I’m nervous, hard to sleep...damn...

I miss you guys, all my rp buddies, all the people who have been good to me here on tumblr.

It’s 2 am...

Should try to sleep again.

I miss you. I am nervous to come back to the rp community here, perhaps feel like I’ve been gone from it too long.

I am scared maybe. Most likely. This whole thing has been scary. 

It always is difficult to deal with that imposter syndrome of ‘this person next to me is way better than me at this...why would I get hired?’

I’m trying, it’s hard but I promise I’m trying.

It’s hard not to think I’ll be a mess at my first web dev job but god do I wanna try.

I’m scared of failing but not nearly as scared of not having tried. I gave up everything I knew career-wise to try this.

It’s been scary, it’s all come to this and now I’m nervous as hell lol

Gonna try and sleep again...promise.

Once it’s all done, I’ll tell you about the app guys. I’ll show you. I’m so proud of it haha. 

uhhhh, i think it's nearly been a year since i've posted ?? and accidentally took an unannounced hiatus

long story short; i graduated college !! moved !! and got a big girl job !! so lots of life changes happened very quickly and very suddenly. so i apologize for ghosting for so long !!

this account has quite literally been in the back of my mind every single day. it still fills me with so much love and excitement when i see people still enjoying my previous works !! and during there's past months i've tried writing, but nothing seemed to ever come to fruition. i'd start something, get 50% – 80% done then just ,, lose all creativity or get too busy to write while i actually had motivation. i think i have about 20 nearly completed works and no less than 200 fully fleshed out ideas i've collected in my notes app.

but lately, i've slowly began working on incorporating more of my hobbies back into my life and i want writing to be one of them !!

so i am very excited to get back to this account and while i will definitely be slow with posting, i want to keep up with this account !! i'll probably rework my masterlist and a few things so it feels fresh, but other than that !! thank you for being so patient and still showing me so much love <3

(TL:DR – hiatus over !! will be back to posting soon !)

hi everyone ! i know i haven't posted anything on this account for a few months now and i wanted to apologize as i know this mini hiatus was unexpected and people are waiting on updates to the yunho series and such !! i'm currently in my last year of uni and i needed time to really focus on my studies in order to finish strong, so i had to step away from posting for a bit.

i've still been writing and working on things in the meantime, but having the pressure of posting was what i needed a break from, just for a little bit ! but i'm excited to say that the stress of school is over with the summer approaching and i will be back to posting soon !!!! thank you so much for all the patience you've shown and for still reading and commenting on my posted works (i've been on here reading all of the nice reblogs, comments, etc. and they've made me so happy 🥹).

i will have much more time on my hands soon and many things to write and reply to and will get to everything :) thank you once again and i'm excited to be back, as i have a lot of fics planned !