#no access

Access Denied. 9 boyfriends and 1 girlfriend later, I’m still single, lovers to my haters, skeptical about a mingle, dating scares me but marriage doesn’t, I know that doesn’t make sense but I’ll put things into perspective. My time, my value, myself is an investment, if you want access to me, let’s have a discussion, if you can’t handle commitment, walking away from your situation, I can’t fully submit to you. I’ve given the wrong people full access to me, none of them deserved me the way I deserve to be treated. I got through so much on my own, I can’t believe I disrespected myself so much, letting bad people touch me, kiss me, do such things to me. No, never again I shall let anyone treat me like bronze or silver, I’m too grown to be the middle man, I don’t deliver. I believe this is the epiphany I’ve been waiting for, my true self worth. Ring on my ring finger, hell yeah, I’m committed to myself. It’s been a long time coming but I’m not done yet, I still got a lot to work on. But my mind is made up, my path to forever is starting. Ambitious young woman, I am growing to be, it’s me who I believe in, me who has me from the start to the ending. No man, no woman cannot have any access to me, unless I open the door for them. Can’t afford that mistake to happen now, shouldn’t have happened at all, but lesson learned. I know the type of person I want by my side, someone who wouldn’t hide me, obviously keep things between us private, public affection isn’t my style but maybe you could steal a kiss or two from me. When I get big mad, you’ll know how to calm me down, if I walk away from you, hold me until I breakdown in your arms, listen to me when I need you to listen to me and randomly just kiss me. I can get hot, but you’d cool me down, every time. Don’t do something you’ll regret later, if you’re down for me, don’t tell me, show me. Commit to me, invest yourself into me, if you’re serious about me. Love me, not someone you just met last night or somebody I’ve known for years, love me. Take your time with me, take yourself seriously. Not everyone’s built for a relationship, a lot of people will settle for something temporary instead of going for forever. What will you choose? I know exactly who I want, I want Forever.