#nmtxt

if anyone wants some good news: the fledglings of the wrens who nested in our birdhouse have started leaving the nest this morning AND we spotted our first monarch butterfly of the year on the butterfly weed

it’s real whomp whomp hours i guess but man i really need to get out more. like, for many different reasons but i just…don’t really have community here? i meet people and make friends but it’s all very isolated in my area. i wanna go out and be disgustingly and disastrously queer and fuckin weird and dance all night and fuck whoever i want!!! i want to go somewhere without an idea in mind and i want to have fun and i desperately want to feel something. i wanna live and not just survive, y’know?

i wish i could be more active in the servers i’m in but there is just…so much all the time? i cannot handle 20+ channels and even if i just stick to just 2 or 3 i’m still too slow. like, wombo combo autism + meds affecting cognitive function & reaction time = not being able to think of what to say and type it fast enough. which sucks cuz most folks on servers type really fast and A LOT. it’s just hard to interact when i can’t keep up :-|