#nikuniku rant

every time i see my work schedule me six days part of me says i should be glad for the hours but another part of me is seething with rage. like, they don’t want people to have overtime but they keep scheduling me for it and then end up having to write it off... it happens so frequently i’d think they’d actually stop to check and make sure that it’s not happening...

So on Tuesday, my mom popped by the apartment before I was gonna leave and asked if we could go upgrade her phone. I told her that I couldn't do it that day because I was about to leave for school. Then I went to school and after an hour or so she called me asking where I was and I told her that I had gone to school and she asked, when I was gonna leave, and I told her that it was gonna be after the time that the Sprint store closed. So she asked when my next day off was which was Wednesday, but I didn't really want to go with her then because Andrew was sleeping over. When I told her I didn't want to go Wednesday she cried at me and asked why I was being so mean. Frustrated, I told her I was off Thursday too and we could go that day, but I would have to ditch class again because she wanted to go early so she could go do her appointments.

I'm sick and tired of this stupid report. 

I... feel like shit. Like. It's kind of been like this the past couple of days. For various reasons. It's like I can't bring myself to do anything productive. I just wanna curl into a ball and cry. 

I get home from work and find my mom and her stuff sprawled across my bed. First thing she asks me is if I brought anything. I didn't because she hadn't asked me for anything. Then I asked her why she's in my room because it's not her lounge, and she tells me that I wasn't home so it became her lounge. ._. 

ugh. i love my mom, but srsly. she needs to stop just taking money from my bank account. i took a look in there this morning and there wasn't even a dollar in there. i don't mind lending her money when i have some, especially since she doesn't charge me rent or anything. i just wish she would have asked me instead of just going in and taking money and overdrafting my account. i told her and she was just like, 'sorry, can i go back to work now?' and it's just like, 'you don't have any remorse?' i'm lucky that i had the difference in my savings account otherwise i would've been fucked. she told me she'd take care of it when she got paid/her moneys, and it's not like i don't think it'll ever happen (her getting paid that is) it's just it doesn't happen on a regular schedule. it drives me insane because she always has to borrow from me until that happens. 

Mrr. There was a withdrawal from my bank account for $25 that I didn't make myself. About 90% of the time it's my mom who does it. So I asked her if she did it. She said no, and I asked her to check and make sure rather insistently. She was getting all mad about it too because she didn't seem to get that IF SHE WAS NOT THE ONE WHO MADE THE WITHDRAWAL I NEED TO FIND OUT WHO DID AND CHANGE MY SHIT. Anyway, she said it wasn't her, so I called the bank to find out stuff and found out that it's a reoccurring withdrawal from my account that was set up by the other person on my account, in other words... my mother.