Flowkirkenuienly inspired by the song my girlfriend-TV girl
Eat what you can
Pairing: zanka nijiku x reader
Genre: fluff
Summary: headcanons and a small snippet of zanka taking care of reader when theyāre going through depressive states.
Wc: idk, not long tho
A/n: im too lazy to check the wc lowk, srry not srry. I listen to tv girl but never heard that song before, yikes.
Enjoy!
Zanka would be quietly, steadfastly supportive. Heās not the loud, overly affectionate type who forces you out of your shell with big gestures, but heās incredibly attentive and consistent in his own measured wayāespecially with someone shy and quiet who tends to withdraw completely when depression hits. He understands pressure and the weight of expectations (given his own background with the Nijiku family), so heād never push you to ājust get over itā or perform for the team.
Headcanons
⢠Checking in without overwhelming you: Zanka is observant as hell. Heād notice right away if youāre skipping meals, not leaving your room much, or if your usual quiet demeanor has gone even more inward. He wouldnāt knock loudly or demand entryāheād send a soft message or just quietly appear at your door with something small (water, a snack you like, or even just a report that gives him an excuse to linger). āYou havenāt been out much. Need anything?ā delivered in that calm, low voice.
⢠Bringing necessities: Food and water are non-negotiable for him. Heād bring balanced, easy-to-eat stuffāmaybe things he knows you tolerate even when appetite is gone. Nothing flashy, just reliable. If youāre really deep in it, he might sit on the edge of your bed or the floor nearby, eating with you in comfortable silence so you donāt feel watched or pressured to talk.
⢠Hair washing and gentle care: This feels very in-character for Zankaās precise, caring side. If you let him, heād help with practical self-care that feels impossible when depressed. Heād run a warm bath or bring a basin, handling your hair with surprising gentlenessāfingers careful not to tug, massaging your scalp slowly while the room stays quiet except for the water. āRelax. Iāve got it.ā Heād dry it thoroughly afterward too, almost methodically, like itās another task he refuses to half-do when it comes to you.
⢠Nighttime cuddling and hair play: Evenings are when heād be most present. After missions or training, heād slip into your room (if you share space or he has access), kick off his boots, and just pull you against his chest without a word. One arm around you, the other slowly carding through your hairālong, soothing strokes that help ground you. No forced conversation. He might murmur occasional low reassurances like āYouāre not alone in thisā or āTake the time you need,ā but mostly itās silent comfort. His presence is steady and warm, a quiet anchor.
⢠Respecting your shyness/isolation: He gets that you shut down around others when low, so heād run interference with the rest of Team Akuta if neededāsubtly steering people away or covering for you without making it obvious. Heād never shame you for not being as active as the others. To him, youāre still valuable and worthy even when youāre quiet and withdrawn.
⢠Long-term approach: Zanka might gently encourage tiny steps when you seem ready (a short walk together, fresh air), but only if you signal itās okay. Heād research or recall what helps with low moods in his own analytical way, applying it patiently.
Short scene
The room was dim, the usual bustle of the Cleaner quarters far away. You hadnāt left much in days, curled under the blanket with that heavy fog pressing in, the kind that made even simple words feel too loud.
A soft knockābarely thereāthen the door eased open. Zanka stepped in, carrying a tray with water, some rice balls, and sliced fruit. His two-toned hair was still neatly styled despite the long day, navy eyes scanning you quietly.
āYouāre still in here,ā he said, not accusatory, just stating fact. He set the tray down and sat on the edge of the bed. āEat a little if you can.ā
You managed a few bites in silence while he waited, patient as ever. When you finished, he didnāt leave. Instead, he shifted closer. āCome here.ā
You hesitated, but let him pull you into his lap, your back against his chest. His arms wrapped around you securely, one hand finding its way to your hair. Slow, rhythmic strokesāfingers gentle through the strands, untangling knots with care. The silence stretched, comfortable and safe. No questions about why you were like this, no pressure to rejoin the others.
Minutes bled into longer. His breathing was even, grounding. Occasionally his thumb brushed your temple, or heād lean down to press a light kiss to the top of your head.
āWhateverās weighing on you⦠you donāt have to carry it alone tonight,ā he murmured eventually, voice low. His hand never stopped its soothing path through your hair. āIām right here.ā
In the quiet dark of your room, with Zankaās steady warmth behind you and his fingers still playing gently with your hair, the weight felt just a fraction lighter. Heād stay as long as you neededāno rush, no expectations. Just him, solid and unwavering.
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