#nihilistic

eyes full of pumice search for glimpses of lucidity

and yet, when closed, dark becomes light

fleeting shards of hope smeared like snot on a child’s sleeve

make it all go away

let me succumb to darkness, embraced in her cold dark womb

Against “nothing matters”.

Nihilist says “Because it’s all meaningless, nothing matters.” Spinoza says the opposite. “Because everything is necessary, everything expresses divine meaning.”

The nihilist collapses two levels. The instrumental level, where human meanings are relative (we work, feed ourselves, warm our flats, reproduce or not), and the ontological level, where the act of existing itself is the meaning.

On the human level, we must give things meaning to survive because the striving to persist in being is our very essence. That striving is not an illusion or arbitrary psychological impulse. It is the activity of divine nature through the finite mode.

Thus, when you care about your heating bill or your next meal, that concern is not a sentimental projection but necessity manifesting as care.