#nighttime tea

𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭🌠

Tonight I have a lot on my mind. Yet I don’t want to talk about it or dig it out. I would much rather help others unpack their baggage than to divvy up my own. That seems backwards, but the pain is so deep and dark sometimes that it’s often times too hard to want to muster up the courage to face the darkness alone. But in life I’m learning that it is truly the survival of the fittest. Some suffer more than others because the greater the blessing the greater the suffering.

It has to balance out somehow. I guess.

Today I sat in my room looking out the window, both super excited and super sad at the same time. I didn’t know what to do with that feeling. I felt like a computer when it just buffers like ‘WHAT NOW’?

Bittersweet is the feeling I get when I think about my blessings and my burdens. On one hand it’s nice and sweet and on the other side it’s dark and dreadful. The stresses of life has me drinking tea both in the morning and at night. Maybe this whole life thing is all about balancing out the highs and the lows, The darks and the lights. The ups and the downs.

I received some of the best advice today. I was sitting inside and not feeling like being bothered, but I feel like the spirit was telling me to go outside and not miss out. I didn’t know what in the world I could be missing out on, but I figured I’d better listen anyways.

Good thing too because I ran into this really handsome guy and he sat down and talked with me for awhile. He spoke so much life into me. I kinda was in awe that he would even sit and talk with me because of how good he looked. He seemed like a man that women would fight to get his attention. Then he had the nerve to be smart. I was soaking up every word that came out of his mouth. His words were giving me life. He was giving me the encouragement that I needed to get through the day. God Bless that fine man. He’s the type of man that you take home and never let him go. At least in my opinion.