-how deep is the ocean? what are you even looking at

-those oil rigs and the fact that its pitch black at night, there is nothing out there. You can't see anything out there. I mean I guess you assume there’s water but you really can’t see it

-Im not even that concerned about what’s in the ocean (that’s its own can of worms 😰)but its more like how devastating it wouldfeel to be drifting above the ocean… like if you’re stranded on a driftwood and you look down…. That’s horrifying

-So much Enlgish literature has boat and sailor stuff. (definetly overclouded by an ugly, disgusting history). But I read a few where the young sailor man would be clearly enthralled by the idea of exploring the world. Enraptured by the the mystery of the ocean. Oh, its so beautiful. Then I'm thinking, what if a storm came by. Then what. Would you still think it was beautiful? or maybe you would think it was sickening. Or would you even have time for that because...how big is that storm? How small are you on that boat compared to the wind and water around you?

-If I could find a movie or show or book that has these vibes with a sailor dude who almost dies because he thought the ocean was so beautiful… it probably exists and I’m not looking hard enough

-also thinking about a short film I watched somewhere where a storm came by and the captain tied the girl to the mast to keep her from falling off. All fine and dandy but who says that boat is gonna survive the storm…

-I can't help but kind of get the “romance”tho. It's the same feeling as when I try to think about the scale of space. It's the jolting feeling I imagine meteorologists feel when they see the magnitude and strength of a powerful tornado or huricane.

-also the ocean can be so gorgeous

-One of the movies that captures this feeling so well for me is Children of The Sea, especially in that scene with the whale.

-but it all feels inauthentic... I barely go to the ocean and I have never been on a boat bigger than a canoe, so...