#neytirisully

Empty Promises ~ part one

Neteyam x gn na’vi reader

Summary: the feeling of emptiness.

A/n: yes this is a angst story! But don’t worry it does get better. Also this happens after the incident with Quaritch but the rest doesn’t exactly follow the main storyline

Tiyawn: love

Nga yawnel lu oer: i love you

Sa’nok: mother

Yawne: beloved

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Thud. Choke. The sound of my heartbeat and me choking as I hold back my tears as I stare at my lover in disbelief, his gaze on me as he reaches for my cheek.

“y/n.” my name. Goddammit.

i look away, not uttering a word incase i ended up crying. I couldn’t be able to look at him. Not now. Not after what I heard.

“why?” I manage to whisper, cheeks wet, eyes stinging from the betrayal of my tears falling. “I have to. For my family. For you. For the clan.”

I finally was able to turn to look at him to see that he is also crying. Neteyam, my yawne, my future mate, my everything. After the incident at the abandoned shack, Jake and Neytiri both decided it was best for the Sully’s to leave. To leave home. Leaving me behind.

“But can’t i come?” I place my hand on his chest as i feel his heartbeat. “I’m sorry tiyawn. You can’t.”

Tiyawn. The name he always calls me. I feel my heart breaking even more.

I was his. He was mine. We have known each other since before we could even crawl. “But i can’t lose you ‘teyam. What if i never see you again?” He holds me. His smell makes me cry more. Damn traitors.

“You won’t lose me tiyawn. We will see each other again.” I look up at him. “When?” He shakes his head. “I don’t know.”

Suddenly his lips landed on mine. His taste. Makes me feel even more scared then I am now. He pulls back and suddenly i feel cold. His touch, his presence alone is warm. Like a sun. He starts walking away but turns to face me one last time “i promise i’ll come back, i promise i will never forget my love for you. Nga yawne lu oer”

I smile weakly as i’m alone. Terrified. Heartbroken. My legs give out on me as I fall to the ground of his now empty marui. Sobbing for what felt like hours. I sobbed to the point where i couldn’t breathe and my eyes couldn’t produce more tears. I was alone. And was afraid his promise was nothing but empty.

Months have gone past. I barely slept. Barely ate. Barely did anything except sit in the Sully’s empty tent. My sa’nok kept coming to check on me, trying to persuade me to come out. But i couldn’t move. I was frozen. Paralysed. Like a part of me was missing when they left. When he left.

I can’t bear to mention his name. When i do, i end up sobbing. Pathetic really.

When i sleep. I dream of him. More of a nightmare. It’s always the same. It’s the day he walked away from me, muttering words like “i’ll forget you” “you’re not good enough to even remember” “I’m finding someone else to replace you” every night. I scream his name to the point my voice is hoarse. My throat is dry and i’m back on the floor, sobbing uncontrollably. This then leads to panic attacks. It happens so much that I don’t sleep.

Sometimes I think about if if what he said in my dreams were true. Maybe i wasn’t good enough to be fought for. I had this horrible feeling in my gut but I ignored it. I still loved him. Surely he wouldn’t forget me.

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I sit. All day. Everyday. Waiting for them. Praying to Eywa that he returns. That he comes back holding me, telling me that it’s okay, that he still loves me. But he doesn’t. He’s not even here.

“Happy Birthday tiyawn. I know it’s not much but i asked my mother to help me make a bracelet for you since you know, I suck at things like this.”

The bracelet. The bracelet he gave me on my birthday. Months before he left. The only thing that keeps me sane. But it’s not enough. I need to smell him, to feel him to touch him.

I shiver as I feel a shadow lurking over me. I assumed is was sa’nok. Everyday she comes by to feed me. To make sure I was okay.

I always put on a false smile, pretending i’m fine. But over the months it’s been harder to smile. She knows it. Everyone knows i’m not well.

“Sa’nok i’m not hungry”

“Hey.”

Suddenly everything stops. Time stops. I’m frozen. It can’t be.

To be continued!!!!

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