#newyearsstuff

happy new years everyone! cannot believe its 2015, pretty sure in my head we are still in 2008... but anyways.. 2014 was a bit of an odd year for me really. the start of it was my last few months of uni, and although it was a lot of hard work and super stressful, it was also my last chance to have fun with the awesome people i had met at uni. i made some great friends and had some of the funnest times of my life with them. but then graduation happened. i was so proud of myself for achieving that 2:1. was definitely my proudest moment of 2014. but then my life basically changed completely within like a week. moving back to my home town, and having to say goodbye to the friends i had made, the partying, the hillarious conversations we would have at 1am, always having people to talk to, to hang out with. i miss university a lot. and to think i never even wanted to go, i am so glad i did. the rest of the year has just been pretty lame tbh. as much as i love living with my boyfriend, he is basically all i have now. sad, i know. i have no friends here because they all decided to turn into dicks for one reason or another a few years ago. i have struggled to find a job since leaving uni, or if i am honest, struggled to find the motivation to get a job aswell. like i never wanted to face being an actual adult, but now i really have to. i'm gonna do something about how i feel this year. i'm not happy, and i am sick of feeling this way. i need more to my life than sitting in everyday doing fuck all. i am going to try harder to find a job that i am happy with, or if it comes to it, just any job, because its doing my head in having nothing to do everyday. i hope this will then lead me to making friends. i don't really ask for much out of life, just to be content. and i really miss having a social life, alot. having something to look forward to... i even miss the couple of hours before a night out, when i would blast music loud in my bedroom, have a drink and make myself feel pretty with make up and shit. its like i have no reason to make an effort lately. if i can achieve a job and friends this year, i will be very happy. oh and to have a bit of money would be a nice bonus too! i am sorry for most of you probably not giving a shit about this post, which is fine, but i do tend to use my blog as a diary from time to time. just a heads up. :) peace <3