#neet2024

today was fun.

woke up at 5. read through bdc a bit before breakfast.

9 - 10 - nerve muscle physiology. they only taught us what we already knew about neurons from 11th/12th grade.

10 - 11 - anatomy - joints. taught us the basics about joints and their types and mostly covered everything except moveable joints.

11 - 1 - foundation course. basically teaching us how we are supposed to approach learning while in mbbs.

1 - 2 - walked back to the hostel, had lunch, went back to the college.

2 - 3 - biochem. mostly the proff took the entire time to talk about the subject and what he expects from us and about the exams and stuff.

3 - 5 - anatomy. all the teachers of the dept gathered us all, assigned each of us a cadaver (groups of 20) and had us take the cadaveric oath. ngl the formalin did make my eyes water. i was on table one so I was near the storage and ig there's more formalin covered stuff in there?

after that i accompanied my friends as they bought their books and then we all went to buy our dissection kits. (dissection is tomorrow!! can't wait!!) and by the time i came back to hostel it was 7-ish?

the seniors gathered us around, no ragging just a bit of an interaction. then dinner time rolled around but i skipped it to wash clothes 💀 (kya halat ho gayi hei yaar meri-)

anyway then me and my roommates tried group study. the keyword is 'TRIED'. none of us are group study people so it didn't work out.

i read the intro to the first chapter in physiology. and then started with anatomy lower limb. we're working on the hip bone rn and will finish that in tomorrow's lecture. i wanted to complete it tonight but i don't think that'll work out, really. it's already 1:30 and I don't wanna annoy my roommates by keeping the lights on for long.

and besides, i often found myself on the verge of falling asleep during lectures because I got used to sleeping a lot during the 5 months gap between neet and now and I don't want that to continue so ig i really should get some sleep.

23rd Jan, 2024, Tuesday

1:40pm: the obstacles have shown up. in the form of a toxic parental. a small relief is that it wasn't of my making but when a parent fails to do parent things, its like a double edged sword and you're the one getting cut on both ends.

while I did stay up last night to try and complete Thermodynamics - and when I crashed after that I didn't wake up early at all T_T - it dawned on me that its simply too big of a chapter to complete in one day. along with the other chapters I've assigned myself this week.

I thought about it and I think realistically I'm not going to be able to finish them all in the time I have right now, but I can still do something so I don't walk into an exam blind and resigned.

so as a compromise, I'm gonna do as much as I can for the chapters I scheduled each day and its okay if I don't finish the whole thing, because I still did learn and now know more than I did yesterday. despite what anyone says, that's enough.

NO MOTHER, FUCK YOU.