#needstrengthtocarryon

I'm barely holding on to what I know can be restored by God. Barely keeping my faith, barely surviving, barely breathing and hardly living. How can I live this way, with so much pain, with so much regret, with so much anger, with so much agony, without the three things that make me the happiest. How can I live? ...my mind is like a war zone, wounded, fighting, bleeding...this is what my life has come to, a never ending war with people who know not the meaning of forgiveness. Whom would rather win then coexist. Who want to see me suffer instead of thrive and who don't mind taking the things that matter most to me. People who are just downright mean; bullies. This unkindness is killing me in ways that they could never possibly understand and which is creating a hatred in my heart that I do not like at all. It's turning me into a version of myself who I do not want to be. Help me.