#needed release

you inspire me to be a such better me... it was so great to see you yesterday, was much overdue sweetness... until next time my dearest friend

(To follow up, the post I was talking about in my venting session.)

I don’t know who to talk to about this, so I’ll blab at the internet…. WHAT IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE? I finally asked the guy who’s been relentlessly pursuing me to “please leave me alone”, those exact words…. for months on end he has been texting me a goodnight message every night, buying me things and refusing to take them back, staring at me and would lash out whenever I said something he didn’t like. He’s known I have no interest in dating him whatsoever but still asks me to prom and makes dinner dates and such without consulting me or my actual date…. And after trying to distance myself and detach him from me so he doesn’t have to be “hurt” by me anymore, his mother wrote me an extremely hateful letter. A grown-ass adult, a PARENT, wrote a hate letter to a 17 year old girl with severe depression and anxiety because they didn’t want to get with her stalker son? Obviously I’m not the only one with issues here… but I thought adults would know how to behave better than that. I guess I was wrong. *shrugs* I’ve tried to be as gentle and nice as possible with this guy but when I finally ask him to leave me alone, he wanted to know what he did wrong. I told him that he wasn’t listening and reminded him that every single advance he had made was extremely uncomfortable and unwelcome to me, and after years of self hate I’m allowed to try to take care of myself. The first thing this kid does after I explain myself and apologize: post derogatory statements on social media. Now, he didn’t tag me in it or anything but it was the kind of thing where you can just feel that it’s about you, especially since he doesn’t interact with other girls and had attacked me before by putting my insecurities against me. What I really want to know, I guess, is was I right to end things, and am I right to just keep ignoring this guy? This situation has been tearing me apart since summer last year, and he seems like a nice enough guy but to claim to be in love with someone and then act so shitty towards them? I know that’s not love, but how do you help someone like that? Or do you just keep your distance and pray for the best?