#need courage

I hate that feeling when you love to do something and you're really good at the thing, but your anxiety tells you that if you do that thing in front of others you will be shunned and laughed at for being able to do the thing. Anyone else??

Breathe in . .. ... .. . Breathe out Frightened by all the possibilities in this world - because I don't know how to take advantage of what I have, because I feel like I'm always staring out the window through the rain like a character in some drama. How do I live life to the fullest? How do I trust myself to live life to the fullest? Like that Mindy Kaling quote from The Office (I think), "I feel like my life is buffering." Forever buffering, like the good stuff is always on the horizon. I don't want to settle for endless buffering - I want to do and create, but I don't know how to live with fear...take it by its roots and teach it to sing. Well, this post turned out to be longer than expected. Lame late night musings, amirite?

Thinking about posting a topples Tuesday then realized the demand for man boob selfies is really not very high. Happy Tuesday!

Do you want us to be an 'us' where there is no me or you just us ,together? Holding hands walking down the beach looking into the distant waves across the ocean wondering what will happen after the next wave an seeing me popping round yours with a dvd an food an just watch it till we fall asleep or until we just kiss and make-out and forget about everything else and just have to not care about anything but us... god I wish I had the courage to send this to her