Ned remembered the way she had smiled then, how tightly her fingers had clutched his as she gave up her hold on life, the rose petals spilling from her palm, dead and black. Ā After that he remembered nothing. Ā They had found him still holding her body, silent with grief. Ā The little crannogman, Howland Reed, had taken her hand from his. Ā Ned could recall none of it. Ā
a neither here nor there comment--this is such an intense moment of grief that ned literally canāt remember whatās happening around him. Ā itās another moment where iām likeĀ āned is so young and he tried so hard and he failed.ā
it reminds me of arya: coming so close to seeing your family, pinning all your hope on a reunion, only to have them die literally right as you reach them (red wedding).
it reminds me of bran and sansa, both of whom suppress the ever loving shit out of traumatic moments that happen to them.
it, to me, explains better why ned just couldnāt talk about the lie from a more than just logisticalĀ āit could be unsafe for jonā sort of way. Ā he canāt remember lyanna dying it hurts him too much to think about that he blocked it the fuck out. Ā itās a major point of pain and a turning point for him as a person. Ā even beginning to talk about it to her son would probably be an unbelievably difficult task.
