#nblackwidow

He swallowed and gave a sort of meek smile as he took her hand in return. He squeezed it gently and looked down, laughing a bit of a nervous laugh. He shook his head and swallowed. "You have... no idea how much it means to me to hear you say that," he said simply, grinning and looking back up at her. He lifted her hand to his lips and kissed it gently.

"I..." This was the worst part, he had decided quite a while ago. To look somebody in the eyes and give them the news, to let them know that... he was dying. That he would not be there for much longer. He had to see the emotions cross their face, the sadness, the pain, the shock, the fear, the anger, all of it. He hated it. He swallowed and looked down. "I've been gone because I was partaking in my second session of chemotherapy." He swallowed and looked up at her, his hands resting in his lap, fidgeting restlessly. He hated to say this. It hurt to do, to let people know, and usually it only got worse. "I... I have cancer."

"No!" he gasped out in response, waving his hands in front of himself quickly. "No, God no, that's the last thing that I want." He swallowed and hunched forward a bit, raking his hands through his hair. "Natasha, I want to tell you this, I just... don't want you to look at me differently, tiptoe about and... act differently. Please, sit down. Please..."

"Natasha," he said, practically sighing the name. He swallowed and moved aside a bit. "Come in, come in. God, I've missed you. I'm so sorry I disappeared. I'll explain everything."

I LOVE YOU, GURL.))

nblackwidow, I think you're the only Natasha role-play blog that actually does walls of writing. That really just shows people how dedicated you are to expressing your character and how they act and function. Don't let anybody say others. Don't let criticism or any of that other bull bring you down, okay? Do what you want, do what feels right because you're the best Natasha that I have seen around. I'll bet my money on that. I wish there was a tumblr role-play meet up or something ebcause I would love to meet you and all the other awesome people in the roleplaying community. Maybe someday I'll build up the courage to get into the role playing scene too. For now, I'm just goign to watch you and your partners interact. There's always so much chemistry and thought in whatever I read of yours. I cry, smile, flail, and scream at the oddest hours of the day because of you. THANK YOU for being my number one source of quality entertainment and writing. -anonymou

hi. I don't think this girl gets enough cred. nblackwidow, you're like the real life Natasha Romanoff. I can't tell the difference. You're going into the Navy, and I applaud you for that. You really are a soldier. Not only that but you play the Black Widow so well, you show the process of all of her thoughts and you really get into her head and it's almost surreal. I wish I had the courage to talk to you, role play with you but I'm still pretty intimidates. I'm sorry! But you know, someday I will okay? I promise. Just when I get better. That won't be for a while but I hope you stick around forever, please? It would mean a lot to me, and I think it would mean a lot to the whole fandom. I swear I'll talk to you soon, but for now I can't. By the way, my favorite ships of yours are nataniel (with onefinalyear) and victasha (with mr-trevor). They're great writers too! -Anonymous