This is something that I've been wanting to tell/talk about to all of you for awhile. And with there being almost 500 of you following me, it feels like the right time to do so. My medical condition, as I've referred to it when talking to people, happens to be on this list. And you can only get it through it being passed on from one of your biological parents. Gorlin Syndrome is a genetic cancer that has those effected by it having to deal with it for their entire life. Mine is, currently, one of the more calmer cases. It'll be 20 years in August, on my 20th birthday respectively, that I've been dealing with it. And with the friends that I've made who are also effected by it, I wish I could switch places with them so they wouldn't have to go through so much pain. I've had 11 surgeries due to Gorlin Syndrome (short for Nevoid Basal Cell Carcinoma Syndrome). 5 on my left eye, 2 on my jaw and 4 on my right ear. There were times where I was scared and hurting to the point where I wanted to end it all. I'd made those around me suffer and I imagine the medical expenses that my parents paid were not cheap. And there were times where I thought if I was gone, they wouldn't have to worry about me anymore. I know that I'm not in as much pain as others are. I've lost two of my friends to different cancers and I've lost so much family to cancer as well. It just feels like it follows us everywhere. When my older sister was born, she was put in an incubator because her heart stopped. But now 23 years later she's still watching out for our little brother and I. And I am so proud of both of them, for all the joy and everything that they've brought me. All my family and all my friends who have stuck by me. For all of you who I somehow convinced to follow me and not think that I was weird or different. A lot of you have helped me so much and some of you are my best friends. hxmmosirwin (Charley) croatoan-in-the-oven (Tobi) sophiessimpleworld (Sophie) resonating-kitty (Masha) shippingsam (Emma) Thank you girls so much for everything that you've done for me and for being some of the greatest friends that I have come to love and cherish. And thank you all for sticking with me so far!
