#nazart

Because the inmortal realm IS AN E T E R N A L world. No need to make the mortal realm eternal when there's already a INMORTAL WORLD.

This is what happens when you don't go to a THERAPIST, NAZART—

Happy Genderfluid İnformation Day everyone! @genderfluid-focus said its our day to share about ourselves so here i am! Lots of love from me✨ 💜✨

Не ждали? Думали я выложу завтра?

А фиг там! Кушайте сегодня.

Я нашла старый референс Назарта и он немного отличается от моего нынешнего варианта. Но его я вам покажу, когда обработаю его в диджитале.

А сейчас наслаждайтесь знакомством этой сладкой парочки.😉🌹

Ещё хотела бы упомянуть, что образ Оли Монрики я сложила с этих изображений.

Должен быть ещё один аниме персонаж, но я это аниме не смотрела и даже не знаю как оно называется что бы найти изображения. Там была низенькая девушка с механическими конечностями, в нюдовых оттенках. А ещё она общалась с йокаями, призраками и пыталась встречаться с каким то взрослым парнем у которого и так была девушка....

Если кто знает что за аниме, напишите мне, может посмотрю.

А на этом я с вами прощаюсь.

Всем хорошего настроения и

Another doodle of my favorite spacey ghost boi

Queen @whatwouldvalerydo said more. Who am i to not make more? Not that i was already thinking about doing it...haha...

Angel Talbott, anyone?

Au is here.

Why am i talking about that?? Well its because today im kind of emotional. Today is my first years anniversary in tumblr, and i kinda wanna talk. Randomly.

My thirst for drawing started in last year in middleschool. I had many stories in my mind and i wanted to see them on paper. I wanted it so badly, so i tried. Of course i knew results wont be perfect, but i also didnt expected it to be that bad.

I tried many times, but surely not enough, and after many fails i gave up. I told myself "You are not talented for this Naz, you will never be. You are wasting your time and hurting yourself. Find something else."

And i did. I stopped trying. I didnt know this was the worst decision i can make.

İn my last year in highschool -which is one year ago from today- i was kiiinda depressed because of my univercity exam. I wasnt sure which one i wanted to go, i was just randomly studying for a good point in exam. But studying without knowing what you want to do was harder than i thought. When this covid thing happened and i had to stay in my room for months and just study, i just couldnt take it anymore.

I told myself "Fuck everything. Fuck it. You wont do anything good anyway."

I wanted to play some games to kill time, and finished few games. That was the time i remembered Hogwarts Mystery. And i downloaded again. And i fell in love with it.

Time to admit, back then i didnt watch any Hp movie, or read its books. No, i just knew the Harry Potter, saw few film scenes on tv but that it. So its safe to say i learned the Hp universe with Hphm, with Night. It was expected for me to want draw them.

And suprisingly i really started to draw. I didnt care how bad it was, i was already in bottom end i thought it cant be any worse.

And here i am. İn the end of my first year of univercity, studying comminication design, taking art classes, using little graphic tablet. With Night, i realized thats what i want to do. I also find the courage to come out as enby, with Night again. Look how my art changed, how Night changed in a year.

Sometimes i wonder what it would be like if i didnt gave up on drawing, back then when i was in middle school. Thats why im keep saying everyone i know to not stop, believing in theirselves.If you want to do something, that feeling will never leave you alone. You will always want to do it and will do it one day too. Just dont lose that much time like me.

Sooo as you can see, Night is pretty important to me, so Tumblr. Thats why i deeply care about mc's here, all the amazing people here. Because all of you are part of Night's life, at least in my eyes. Thats why a simple like on my art makes me feel happy for week, a simple comment makes me feel loved, cared, seen.

It pains me to find it hard to reach people here. Like most of us here, im not sure if im bothering someone, annoying someone, or talk too much or talk shit too much. It doesnt even makes sense most of times, dont worry i know. But i feel like it anyway. But its okay, isnt it?

I believe we need to let ourselves to feel negative things. To get rid off them. Thats what im doing it anyway. It also shows me how i have love for somethings in my heart, enough to get hurt by it. In its own weird way, im happy to feel that love. If a little negativity comes with it, who cares??

Im happy to be here, cant believe its been a year. I cant believe how my art changed during that time, how i changed.

If im liking your posts, reblogging, leaving comment; i hope you at least smile and feel seen. Because im here, seeing your hard work and amazing results (even if you think its not amazing)

Thank you, and i hope you are also happy to be here. Because i am happy that youre here.