SYNOPSIS . you finally have time to be with nancy outside campus. she plans a very stupid yet fun idea for both of you to do: setting the fun and light atmosphere she was trying to achieve. though all of that's meaningless now that both of you get stuck in a sticky situation.
PAIRING . internalized homophobia!nancy wheeler x fem!reader
WARNINGS . NOT PROOFREAD. angst, mentions of men (specifically steve), doomed yuri, homophobia (nancyâs indenial), societal issues, situationships suck
a/n: guys be warned ⊠this might be so corny. and itâs my first time uploading my work! so fingers crossed that u guys would like it
âhello?â you knock on the wheelersâ door, your hand playing with the strap of your bag.
you see the door open, revealing a very happy nancy wheeler. she shrieks, âyouâre here!â and pulls you for a hug.
âyes. iâm here.â your words get muffled, getting squished by her tight hug.
she pulls back, and tells you to come in. you enter her house after closing the door. she waits for you and holds your hand, âfollow me, i have a great plan.â
nancy guides you to the way of her room, sprinting. you havenât seen her this excited beforeâatleast until now. sheâs rushing like sheâs chasing her physics teacher to submit her thesis on time. maybe because itâs your first time hanging out with her other than being in school.
once you both arrive the room, she immediately locks the door. you tlit your head, âdo you really have to lock it?â
she walks away from the door, âsiblings tend to spy. especially mike.â
you shrug and turn to look at her bedroom. itâs⊠pretty. the walls are light pink and the other parts of it are covered with picture frames: big and small, and a tom cruise poster. her items are neatly organized, just like how youâd imagined.
you then look at her bed, seeing clothes on top of her teal bed sheets you would never expect nancy would own. slightly over-sized suits and ties, sunglasses, with leather jackets.
âyou own these?â you ask her, a bit taken aback.
âobviously not.â she chuckles at how your jaw drops. âi borrowed it from my dad, which leads us to my plan.â she takes the leather jacket, waving it at you.
âuhh..â you trail off, still confused. âyeah, donât know.â
nancy sighs, but her smile is still wavering. âyou really are a slowpoke. what i meant is that weâll dress up as boys.â
she throws the leather jacket at you, and you catch it, stumbling. âso, dress up! letâs see who can be the next perfect hunky man in hawkins high.â
you grinned, âoh, i think this will be only a challenge for you.â
nancy gasps in mock-offense. âwow, you think I canât be handsome?â
âcome onn. a pretty lady canât possibly be a manly jock.â you giggled, trolling her to see that pout sheâd always do whenever she gets annoyed.
âoh, iâm so going to prove you wrong.â she crossed her arms, her face leaning close to yours.
âsure, whatever you say, wheeler.â you whisper, copying her movements.
âugh! okay, letâs focus and actually start.â she leans back, smiling widely as her excitement explodes in her heart.
a few minutes later and you both are actually focused on winning this stupid game that nancy thought of. youâre at the left side, trying to copy that tom cruise poster by eyeing on it time to time.
for nancy, sheâs trying to slick her hair backâtrying to style it the way steve harrington would. she mutters, âgod, who knew styling menâs hair would be hard?â
âi donât think so at all wheeler. but keep going, i guess.â you answered, giving yourself a pat in the back for being a step ahead.
âyouâll live!â you put on the leather jacket you caught earlier, finalizing your outfit.
nancy rolls her eyes playfully, huffing at how complicated her hairâs becoming.
âshow me, wheeler!â you shout, your hands catching the padded shoulders of her suit to keep her from turning away.
nancy shrieks and laugh, âno! i look stupid!â turning away from you.
âcome on! let me be the judge of it!â you chuckle, and finally nancy turns around to look at you.
sheâs⊠wow. manly looking, atleast.
she tied her hair into a bun, leaving on her side bangs. the bunâs covered with a fancy hat, perfect for her outfitâa dark brown suit and tie. her pants big on her, the black belt holding on.
you opened your mouthâthen held your laughâswallowed it and replaced it with a smile. âugh, donât look at me like that.â she flushes her face, like this wasnât her plan in the first place. but little did you knowâyou were getting lost. this was supposed to be dumb jokeâyet youâre staring at nancyâs transformation like the world stopped.
her eyes slowly blinking at you with that cute pout she does. âthis is weirdâ, you thought to yourself. why is your heart beating so fast? why is your breath hitching? itâs like youâre drawn to nancyâs male version.
if you did have to think and imagine about it: a boy version of nancy wheelerâclean, organized, hair absolutely spent precious time on, clothes with different shades of pastel, and smart. what if that guy shows up to you at class and asks for an extra ballpen with that same sweet tone nancy has? what if that guy makes great essays and has a small notebook of mental notes about you just like how nancy does?
youâd fall in love with him.
but heâs not real. he doesnât exist. and thatâs a bummer.
âyou actually look handsome.â you chuckled.
âand you, look like tom cruise on a budget.â she pointed out, smirking.
you wear the cool sunglasses, your eyebrows wagging at her. âiâll pretend you didnât say that.â
you both then go to the mirror, making poses, doing âmanlyâ dialogues and creating scenes like you would see in an action movie. nancy plays the music on her boombox, then suddenly you guys are on the bed, bouncing, dancingâacting crazy.
âtom cruise, you having fun?â nancy says in a deep voice.
âsure i am.â you cleared your throat to copy her husky voice, âbut watch out!â you took nancyâs pillow and hit her.
âhey!â she gasps, the hat falling off from her head.
âi told ya to watch out.â you giggled.
âthat is it, cruise!â she yells in her stupid deep voice. she gets a pillow aswell, hitting you.
the room was now filled with echoes of yells and criesânancy absolutely dominating and hitting you many times on the face while you try to take cover. ânot fair! mr. wheeler!â she laughs evilly, âyou started it.â
she continues to strike you, and then you stumble, your heart stopping as you felt like you were about to fall down. but nancyâs fast reflexes grabbed you by the arm, pulling you back up. âi saved your life.â
âafter beating me up? i donât think so.â you raised an eyebrow.
you then sit down, and nancy follows you suit. both of you are trying to get your breath after the pillow fight, the song only blasting up in the room.
âyou know, i think you would be a great boyfriend.â you break the silence, muttering.
âreally?â her eyes shine. âyeahâi mean, why wouldnât you be?â you scoffed, your mind already loading up an infinite amount of reasons to use. âyouâre serious but can take a break, you arenât a messy person, youâre not a prick and⊠you could understand anyone no matter how hard it gets.â you confessed, but nancyâs too oblivious to know that you really mean it. too oblivious to see your hands slightly shaking.
âawhh,â she coos, smiling softly at you. âand if i were a man, Iâd immediately fall in love with you and your stupid comments.â
âwhat?â you stuttered, your cheeks flushing.
nancyâs eyes widen and straightens her back. âno. donât get me wrong!â she splutters. âi have steve, and iâm happy with him.â
âno, no. i get it. donât worry.â you force out a chuckle. you couldnât help but feel your own heart ache at nancyâs words. it was a slap back to reality. where steveâs the one who accompanies her in every hallway, where steveâs the one who brings flowers, where steveâs her tom cruise and youâre the side character no one cares about. itâs a shame to know, even though theyâve been dating since first term.
âyeah, i know you do. i donât know why I panicked.â she mumbles, shaking her head.
âwell, you only panic when thereâs a lot in your mind.â you painfully grinned, shaking off that heavy feeling thatâs carrying you.
she huffs, âitâs just, me and steve⊠i donât think he knows what i want.â
you listen in silence. âitâs likeâhe thinks he understands me, but really heâs just making things up in his mind and act that iâm okay.â
âwell, did you try talking to him?â you questioned.
âI tried.â she pauses, contemplating if she should tell everything or just leave the other parts out. âit just ends up with him and i making out.â
âgo dump him.â you advise, and scoot closer to her. âyou deserve someone who will love you inside and outside. someone who will listen to you. not cut you off for his own pleasures.â you get her hand, caressing it softly.
âthatâs the best thing you can do. free yourself.â you smile.
she meets your gaze, and holds your hand back. âi canât.â your smile fades.
âwhy?â your throat running dry.
âiâm scared of..â she cuts herself off. ânever mind, forget it.â
âtell me, wheeler.â you gently pleaded, squeezing her hand.
sheâs breaking down. her eyes didnât want to meet with yours, feeling a sense of shame. she canât admit it, not to you. âi canât.â
âiâm not leaving you, no matter what.â you reassure her, eyes softening at nancyâs tears building up.
âi just cant.â she blinks, making those tears fall down. âi donât want to be alone.â
âyouâre never alone.â you shushed, pulling her for a hug. she hugs back and buries her face on the leather jacket. you pull backâstaring at her glassy eyes. you both just looked at each other, until you pull her by her necktieâto kiss her lips. quickly, and gently.
nancy stays quiet. but her face shows that sheâs trying to process everything. her eyes widened, lips slightly quivering at what you didâafraid. âwhatââ
âi know this might not be the best time ever to confessââ
nancy cuts you off, her lip quivering. âyeah, it is. in fact this is disgusting. i canât believe you just kiss me.â she immediately pulls you away from her.
your heart feels like itâs about to sink. âi thought youâŠâ
âwhat? kiss you back? because i have some big crush on you?â
âshit. sorry. i should go.â nancy blinks, she managed to say these last words that sure punched your gut. âjust, donât go near to me anymore.â she breathes out, crying even more.
âiâm really sorry. that was a mistake.â you stood up from the bed.
âjust get out of here.â nancy snaps at you.
you take off the leather jacket and put your clothes inside your bag. you ran away from the door with the tom cruise outfit.
there is no more hope left for you. you just had to make things worse between you and nancy.
you conclude you have to go stag for no one can ever see you the same way anymore. theyâll see as the freak who kissed a girlâand worse, steve might kill you in front of everyone and no one would care. the last thing you would probably see is steveâs bruised and bloody fist aiming right at you. you wonât ever see her again.
wonât do study sessions like you both always do. and never see her in drag anymore.
youâll pine away forevermore, for both versions of nancy wheeler.