#mystuffdam

THINGS THAT WILL HAUNT ME FOREVER

Connor licking this finger stick

Connor immediately complimenting Hudson when Hudson tells about his weaknesses

Connor calling Hudson "my boy"

Hudson licking the finger stick, which Connor WAS JUST LICKING

SNACK TIME!

FIRST you need to switch on the lights in all the fucking warm-light spherical lamps to set the mood

Okay so thats minimum 9 spherical lamps, not including other wall and desk lamps. He had to work fast.

So yes Ilya, you can stand all nonchalant with your vodka but we KNOW you were just frantically running around from one lamp to another

Does he look all sexy and unbothered to you? No, he looks like a guy, who had to change 20 pairs of AAA batteries in 5 minutes while Shane was freaking out outside.

+ bonus

Shane: Ilya, please switch on the lights in the backyard while I'm making 8 burgers as per recipe

Shane: by the way do you like my lamps? I saw them in your penthouse in 2014...

Shane: Ilya...???

Shane:

But if we’re offered the same fashion shows, we’re like, ‘Which one are you going to? Okay, I’ll go to a different one.’'

1. Boys in Russia are considered weak if they cry, fathers do not kiss and hug them while they are young, when they need it the most. Classmates call you "gay" if you show affection to your friends. The only allowed affection possible is overly manly things like punching.

What is the most healing thing for your hurt? It's hard working. Especially in Russian sport. You should train better. Then you don't have time for these stupid thoughts. Men don't feel that stuff.

And of course you should work hard to deserve love. If not then surely you can understand why doesn't anyone live you. Cause love isn't something that can be unconditional.

2. What most Russian millennials do all their life - they try to see signs that their parents love them, that they deserve some love. All your life you try to make you enough to be loved ever when you fail.

Ilya is afraid of his failure in the Olympics, cause for him it basically doesn't just mean he lost a game, but he lost a chance to be loved by his father. His internal critic says it to him all the time. If only he could win...

Then when Shane says that he likes him and Ilya doesn't believe him, yes, Ilya can't understand, how can he be liked, if he never did anything to deserve it? All his "failures" weigh more than his achievements. He needs to know the proof. Without proof it's just empty words, seems not real, easy to forget this unrealistic thing and come back to being unlovable.

Slowly Shane gives him proof.

- He asks him for his room number, but well.. surely just for sex? Him initiating things is hard to believe. We need more proof.

- Ilya didn't do anything to deserve it and Shane already took care of the groceries. This is hard to believe. He took his suitcase and cooked them food multiple times. This is important, while for some people it looks like everyday things.

This little post was inspired by wonderful analysis by @afro-star and recent discussion with @elysianelysium under this lovely post.

I decided to check Shut Up Evan (SUE) interview part 2 myself and guys... okay. We will not even be discussing cock sock moment here, which includes, but is not limited to "we decided to break the ice by trying it in front of each other".

Instead we will look closely at the body hair monologue. It's 2:36 long and when you watch it, you wish that he would stop, but he wouldn't. It's like ep 2 first time sex scene. It's just keeps going. I think these transitions would fit nicely:

I wanted to gif it, but it's so long. So let's look at some parts of youtube transcription:

H: Anyway, so I have that and then just a little little shave for down there cuz their pubes were out. I think I saw pubes in a couple shots. (pls see his mannerisms here? bitchy Hudson?) I saw pubes.

E: Yeah, pubes are there. Yeah.

H: Keep them well kept. I don't like anyone going hairless. I like something that doesn't look prepubescent. Um or like on a penis, it can look like a naked mole rat pretty quick. (Um, I guess he is not talking about his own penis anymore. It's an opinion of someone looking at other's bodies. Other men's penises I mean. If he was talking about his body hair, I guess he could have said "I love to trim my pubes". That's it. But he continues to rant about all the parts, which are important to him).

H: Um, so just just keep it going down from your legs cuz if you wear like a speedo, you shouldn't be able to see it everywhere else. (Again when Hudson is looking at someone in a speedo, he doesn't want to see pubes. Much to think about)

H: In my opinion, and this is just my opinion, I don't like treasure trails unless it's really like low or you just have hair everywhere and then it's fine. Um, this is just on me, so like caveat. (He doesn't like treasure trails?? Women mostly don't have them btw. And "hair everywhere"? He is now definitely speaking about hairy guys with hairy chests. Do we know anyone???)

H: Um, and then I I like to not the legs, you know, get up in the in your taint. Bend down, look back.

Now to the best part:

H: Um, trim trim your your butt. Um, cuz even, you know, even if you're not participating in anal sex, it's just like you don't want a fucking trap for your shit you know? (Why anal sex? Who said that? No one? Why are we talking about anal sex? And the phrasing "taking part in the anal sex"?? Let me take a guess here: he is talking about people, who top, but refuse to shave their butt. Just my opinion).

You just want to clean Your literal shit. You just want to clean that shoot. Um, clean that shoot. And yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

In conclusion: He really has a lot to say about men's hair and no one word about women?? But women also have body parts which have hair and he doesn't mention pussy not once?? But speedos, penises and anal sex are a part of discussion.