I have asked the question "If you could take back one part of your life, what would it be?" and variations. But my moment is clear in my sights. Or is it?

It would be the choice to go to the Minecraft forum. In the end I will be found out that I am there by by parents. They don't approve of me on forums or pretty much any online interaction. When I am found out I have a feeling I won't have much to do for two years besides possibly read a book for the hundredth time. It also has negatively impacted my grades in a direct fashion and destroyed productivity. And I'm not just blaming MCF. MCF got me into a whole bunch of things like the brony community, a bunch of smaller communities, Homestuck and more.

But I can't JUST wish it away. Because on the good it has brought me it would be better understanding of the world, more maturity in handling situations, a greater want to research things. But most importantly, the brony community. I know I just listed them as a negative but there is a flip-side to that coin. A flip-side that if removed would have made this the fourth sentence in this post with all the information crammed into tiny phrases. Writing. I can say I'm a fanfic writer and I'm proud of it. It shows I'm inexperienced and need help to correct mistakes I make. The thing is, fanfiction is a great way to find help.

Unlike making an original fiction story and throwing it out there, fanfiction gives you a set audience with other writers who would help you in editing and, essentially, put your pen to the grinding stone. It's easier to get help and to make horrible junk, throw it out there and slowly get better in writing through it. Hey, my first two fics were trash. Probably fewer words per chapter than this post is and with a horrible style and meh grammar. But my point is, I had to go through the brony community to begin work on that. I enjoy writing and I want to write original fiction, but if my stuff is hard to read and has occasional mistakes I need to learn how to fix this! Talent isn't always something you are born with, you have to have practice. Some really aren't cut out for artists, like me for I have a shaky hand and though I have an excellent perception down to the last line I can't execute it, or musicians, or writers. Some have an ability, like I can play piano by ear, but no want to do so, like me again.

Where was I? Oh yes, this was a tangent to show why writing fanfiction was good for me. Moving on. So I'm having a problem. If I really never interacted with the online world my future is safe. But I would have never learned how to write, or any of those things I mentioned. I would have better grades, at the cost of a bit of knowledge and wisdom. So should I have never come? I don't know. But that's the past. Now the question is:

Should I leave?

I don't know. In the area of writing, as that's my main argument for staying, my understanding of it isn't near a knowledge enough to actually have a chance writing. Like I said I have style flaws still. Who would fix them?

On the other hand, leaving now decreases my chances of ever being discovered by a lot. I retain my knowledge and be able to use it too.