you know those boxy-dull-pin things you find in science museums and you can put your hand in and if you stand it up the right way it'll retain shape and it makes a cute office thing? my version of panic and people and being overwhelmed is like that boxy-dull-pin thing only all the pins are razor fucking sharp and you don't choose to put your hand in it it's like an Iron Maiden and other people are trying their hand at science museum novelty just pushing wherever and whenever the fuck they want because they can't or won't see you in there.