Where I turned first
I would be remiss if I didn't follow my last post with the 1st thing I turned to. I'm a very spiritual and religious person. I love and have a deep faith in my Savior Jesus Christ. I am grateful for my testimony of Him and His life and sacrifice for me to come and learn and grow here on Earth.
My testimony wasn't always this strong. In that very low time, I felt so weak and alone and overwhelmed! I couldn't understand why my Heavenly Father trusted me so much with this baby. I knew that family was central to His plan. That's what I had been taught from my youth.
I had wanted to start this sacred journey. That's why I had made covenants with My Heavenly Father and my sweet husband a year before my low point. But now in the midst of this new life changing calling of mother, I was lost.
I turned to the Savior in prayer and pleading everyday to help me be better, help me feel better, help me be what I needed to be for those around me. I am grateful for my wonderful husband who loved me through it all and when I said I can't do this he said, “I’m here to help. So is the Savior.”
I remember learning from someone somewhere that no one has ever been through exactly what we have been through. The only one who can truly say and mean they “understand you” is your Savior Jesus Christ. In my time of darkness I clung to that, light and knowledge. That he lived and loved and died and rose again so that He could lift me out.
Next post: Back to where I left off in my first post.
