#myjournalentry01

05 September,2025 Wednesday 22:57

Dear Reader,

There's less than a week left for my 19th birthday, which means I'm currently living my last few days as an 18 yo. Honestly? It hasn't hit me yet. And I have begun to think it doesn't make any difference either. Quite pessimistic of me to start a new season of my life with thoughts like these, i know. Bt I had to let them out somehow.

U see in my head, i still feel like a 16yo. Probably coz for me it was my peak. Post pandemic, offline classes had resumed, my grades were excellent, my social life was smooth, i was nailing my co-curriculars, school was awesome tho coaching was a lil hectic, all in all I was at my best. Bt all good things must come to an end, later things got difficult at home, and my discipline went down the drains, things got messy academically, and i started underperforming. Idk if u have ever felt this, bt after knowing ur true potential, u don't perform even 70% of it, it's kinda embarrassing and a real let down to urself and ur people. And that feeling has stuck with me till now. So I just kept holding onto the illusion of that perfect year trying to rise back to my former glory. Which still hasn't happened btw. So instead of relentlessly feeding into my delusion, I took a leap to start this blog.

Journaling is therapeutic. Doing so on a mass-media platform is boldly therapeutic. Many would argue that I woke up today and chose public assassination over self annihilation. Ig both are the same thing. So self assassination it is. And that my fellas is the best way i could think of to celebrate my 19th.

Real growth starts when u get outside ur comfort zone. This is step no. 1. There's a long way to go. So why not document it and turn it into a source of entertainment for both u and me? If nothing else, we'll at least have funny stories to tell our loved ones at the end of the day.

Now to all those wondering abt who this anonymous blogger is... let's not be in a hurry. All shall be revealed with time. Meanwhile, let's share good laughs, awesome experiences, not so intellectual talks and trash fun debates.

However, i do not expect many of u to read through my entries and it's alright. It's even better for my peace of mind, actually. Till then i'll just pretend someone's reading and eventually i'll find my people who will. Sweet hope!

So that was all for now. I have so many things planned for this blog(maybe i'll make a separate entry abt it) that i'm looking forward to. To be clear, this blog's all abt me and my multi passionate - opinionated self (and a great deal more).

That being said, if u want to have a look inside the mind of a not so average young adult in this digital era... stay tuned.

Until next time, ~Ciao!