Can we just take a moment… *takes in a deep breath*

"Happy birthday to my not-so-little M&M's! I may or may not be sobbing behind the camera right now. You two given me lots of trouble, worry, and heartache... But also so much love, compassion, and newfound patience. Having you two was a complete surprise, but a double blessing and I'm so thankful to have two beautiful boys that bring me so much joy... I was so scared that I'd lose you two when I got sick during my pregnancy... And my heart broke when I found out that you couldn't hear... I still blame myself because if I had never got sick, you two would be perfectly healthy... But everything happens for a reason.

“Goldilocks is redyeing his roots today! He’s also due for a haircut and asked me to attend so he could have a shoulder to cry on, lol. He hates getting his hair cut because apparently he had a bad experience with getting his ear snipped! But I guess he’d rather have an ear cut off than have hair in his eyes, lol. Ah well, he’s always there for me so I went with him to help keep him calm. That’s what friends are for, right? After it was all said and done, it really wasn’t as bad as he thought it would be, no ear snippage or anything! He just slightly misses his ‘Thor-like’ hair but he’ll get over it, lol.” -Catherine

“It’s about time the boys got a haircut! If I blink one more time, they’d have hair as long as Rapunzel! Michael wasn’t very happy about getting a haircut though. He tried to steal the scissors while the stylist was washing Mitchell’s hair! I guess he wanted to cut his own hair all by himself, lol.

But just look at my handsome duo! Although Michael was pretty upset he couldn’t cut his own hair, I think he’s pretty pleased with how it turned out, lol.

“Hello from Joey and Frederick! Frederick was nearby and decided to drop in to see how I was doing. He told me how that the department has been swamped lately because of the most recent case but he would try to do a deeper study on our lead once he has some free time.

I told him he didn’t have to, especially since he’s already stressed with a serious workload, but he insisted... I’m so thankful that he cares so much about Scott but I can’t help but wonder why Scott never really talked about him? I’ve heard of Frederick and even met him at a cookout where Scott introduced us! But I didn’t realize how close they were until now. Especially since Frederick would be willing to lay his life on the line to find him!

“This isn’t healthy for you or your boys, Cat…

Your babies need you! You spend hours searching instead of being there for your boys. You once said that if he was still alive, God would take care of him and bring him back. So why are you wasting time? God doesn’t need your assistance. Why don’t you trust God to take care of him anymore? God has Scott… You need to focus on your babies. They already lost a father, Cat. Don’t make them orphans too…” -Dakota

Trigger Warning! I know not everyone believes in God, it’s okay if you rather not read this, I understand and I still love you. ❤️

Dear God,