My boobs
(Hello, I was mad and bored, and I needed to practice my writing) (It's probably shit, don't waste your time to make me feel better) I have big boobs. Since they came out when I was around 12. On my mother's side, everywoman has big breasts. Everyone. Genetics, fat disposal, call it the way you want it. We all have big boobs and it's ok. Maybe my breasts are big because I am 'overweight'. I like eating sweets and pasta, for example. And my metabolism is not the fastest one. And I am not keen on going to the gym, because I can't always afford it and because I fucking rather watch 3 seasons of a show in that time. So I am fat. And I have big boobs. But, when I was growing up, nobody taught me about feminism, about self love, about being happy with who the self is. They told my that my body was going to change, that if I wasn't skinny or pretty I was going to have a bad time, that I was going to feel insecure and that I should start to "worry about my body"; all of this at the age of 10. I always liked dresses, tank tops, skirts, and everything that is considered "feminine". I have always liked pink things, I love dressing up. I love wearing heels (when it's not too uncomfortable). I love perfumes, lotions, brushing my hair, braiding it; flowers, headbands, scarves, belts, necklaces, earrings, rings, bracelets, handbags, pretty coats, gloves, and all that kind of things you can think of. And fashion, as few industries, is one of the most versatile worlds. You can go shopping every week and you can find every week something new to buy. Seriously, clothes and accessories are constantly being renewed. And they constantly find new ways to sell these things to us. Like sex, for instance. If you open a fashion magazine you can see many adds with sexy models and nude people advertising these products. This leads me to my next point: sexual objectification of the woman. Have you noticed that men don't or rarely wear cleavage showing tops? But women had being doing it since hundreds of years ago. Yes, cleavage has always being considered something feminine and worth showing with the men, corsets for example. I don't know much about history but it seems to me that women were never asked. Like me, I was never asked if I wanted 3/4 of the clothes available if my favourite store to have a low cleavage cut. I know it's sexy, and sometimes pretty. But now I realize that this kind of clothes are not only for grownups. I mean, I've been wearing tops like these since I can't remember maybe since before I can remember. But at some point, my body developed into a beautiful biological temple, and I grew big boobs. And I had to wear these tops. Now you know where I'm going. People have sexualised me since I was 12. I am 21 now, and since my boobs came out I've heard people say: "Put something on", "stop/calm your boobs", "you're distracting me", "I just can't look at you in the eyes" and many other shit like this. I was a kid. I have received this kind of discrimination for almost 10 years, and I think is enough. I'm done with it. It's not that I wanted to fuck someone at the age of 12. Maybe I liked the attention of my male partners. Maybe I had something none of my female friends had, and, when you're in school, anything that makes you special and unique counts. Did I wanted big boos? I never asked for them, they were given to me as a nature's present. As the result of many billions of years of evolution and change. And I am damned grateful. Because now, after years of questioning my anatomy. After years of shame and weird experiences I finally like my boobs. They may not be the smoothest, roundest, with the most perfect nipples and aureolas, boobs; but they are part of me. And I get to decide what to do with them. What if I WANT TO SHOW THEM What if I WANT TO WEAR NO BRA What if I WANT TO WEAR A HUGE ASS PONCHO TO COVER THEM What if I want to wear the previously mentioned low cleavage cut tops What if I am fucking proud of my natural assets I've seen my mother complain about her breasts all my life, because she was always sexually objectified, discriminated and under appreciated. I don't want to become my mother in terms of insecurities and fears of what people may say. I want to be proud. I don't want to feel ashamed of my body. I don't want to feel dirty because I am "naturally sexy", BECAUSE I WANT OR NOT TO FEEL SEXY. You have sexually objectified me for years. Now, I want to BE this sexy being you've pushed me to be. DO NOT REPRESS ME. I am not a "slut" (whatever that means). I am not a pair of boobs, my face is up here! These are my breasts. I wear C cup bras. I buy large size tops. I feel sexy. I feel gorgeous and girly. I feel extremely seductive when I don't wear a bra, and so what. These are my boobs, NOT ME! There is nothing wrong with me. You can't come now, when I own my sexuality, my body, my thoughts; and tell me that I shouldn't be so "slutty" or "too sexy", when YOU turned me into a sex object when I was 12 years old.
