#mybigs

You never had the skills to catch the attention of the boys you wanted, usually your arrow never hitted the right target. And this time wouldn’t be different. JiYoung was too much for you, too busy to care about you. But you didn’t give up on him, you tried your best. And he accepted going out with you, just because you said it wasn’t a date and promised that you wouldn’t try to make things hard for him.

“I’m a such liar”

You waited what seemed like a whole life for this moment, it was your last arrow. You had to hit him.

“Stop calling me whenever I get late, I was on my way”

You lost your breath by the sound of Jiyoung’s voice, you were dialling his number when he arrived.

“I was worried that something did happen to you, don’t be ungrateful”

JinYong smirked and hold your arm pulling you to the right way to the amusement park, you trembled just by the touch of his hand on your skin.

You waited til the very end of the date, waiting the right time to confess to him, again.

“It was a great day ____ , thank you for inviting me”

You smiled and reduced the speed of your steps, it was now or never.

“JiYoung…I need to tell you something…”

“Don’t do it…”

“I have to…”

“I don’t to be mean to you, please" He sighed and turned to look at you.

You couldn’t feel your legs, you were almost losing the guts. But if you give up now, you’d never do it.

“I love you, I love you more that I’ve ever loved someone or something, you’re like the air that I need to survive, I hope you accept my feelings and-“

You couldn’t say any word more, he surprised you with a kiss, all that you ever wanted and thought about. But something was wrong, there was no love on that act, it was nothing that you imagined. 

There is something wrong

He broked the kiss, his eyes were darker than ever.

“Now that you won what you wanted can you leave me alone?”

"W-what?”

“You are loving me until I hate you, beacause that’s what I feel about you. I hate you”

You couldn’t believe that it was happening, it was wrong.

“I’m just here because I feel pity for you. You act like a child, you think you live in a fairytale… but here is the real world”

You couldn’t do nothing but cry, feeling the tears fall down like a heavy rain falls from the sky, you were ashamed and all the times that you were with him passed on your mind, and in all these memories, he was bored and rolling his eyes. You were stupid.

“I’m going first, please don’t call me anymore or try to see me…”

He walked away and unconsiously your feet followed his steps, your knees were hurting asking for a break, asking to meet the ground. He suddenly stopped and turned around to face you.

“And if some day we meet each other on the street, I hope you pretend to don’t know me… Goodbye, have a good life.”