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“Hey, hey, hey. Stop.” You told him softly, making him still so you could hold his squishy cheeks. He blinked, closing his eyes briefly before opening to stare into yours softly. You could see the insecurity in his brown orbs, the anxiety hidden away as his thoughts ate at him. “I’m sure, 100% certain in fact, that you won’t mess up, okay?” You drag his face closer to yours to brush your noses together before leaning your forehead to his. “There will always be hiccups, but you are not going to mess up or ruin anything or whatever other negative thought you’re thinking for anyone okay? You’re going to be your usual charming self and everyone will love you and I will be waiting here for you to tell you how proud I am when you come back. Understood?”

Air fanned your face when he let out a breathless laugh, eye’s closing as he let himself lean into you, enjoying the quiet and the warmth of you for a moment before he grinned. “How are you so perfect?” You lifted your head from his to shove it playfully with your finger. “Oh shush.”

He pecked your lips, a soft light touch that made you feel warm and fuzzy, like having hot chocolate on a cold winter day. Changkyun was just that to you; he was the taste of ice cream when the heat was unbearable, sweet and much needed, he was the breathe of fresh air you needed during autumn when your work just began piling up and you could rarely leave the house, he was the first of the blossoms in spring, making you smile and feel light and let you know the beauties of the world. He had become so addictive, something you felt you needed to the point it scared you. “Thank you, my lovely.” He smiled. Then ruined it with, “My precious.” You shoved his chest, turning and walking away as you frowned, trying to keep the laugh out of your voice. “Ugh, you’re so creepy.” You smiled hearing him laugh out loud, the sound giving you warmth. “Wait up precious.” You nudged him lightly when he came up beside you, “I swear to God Lim Changkyun.”

The rest of the journey was the two of you bantering back and forth. You loved his sarcastic humour and he never failed to have you nearly doubling over clenching your stomach as you laughed at whatever silliness he was spouting.

You both slowed when the short path leading up to your house came into view. Changkyun tucked his hands in his pocket, looking down and kicking at the gravel beneath his feet. You tilted your head at him. “What?” He paused, looking up at you with a little smile. “I don’t want to say goodbye yet…” You had to smile, stepping closer till you could loop your arms around his neck, playing with the overgrown strands of hair at his nape. “Me too.” His arms looped around your waist and for the second time that day he kissed you, lips moving over yours softly, tilting his head to get more of you. The blood rushed to your ears till the world was drowned out and the sound was the thumping of your heart. When he let go your eyes were slow to open, fluttering slowly as your brain tried to piece together your surroundings in your dazed state.

“I have a request.” He whispered. Scared he would burst the comfortable little bubble the two of you were in if he was any louder. “What?” You whispered back. “Well, I um, was thinking that the two of us could have our first sleepover. At my dorm.” Your eyes widen in surprise, breath picking up slightly when your nerves began to get the better of you. “O-oh, um, would there be time, I mean with the tour also would the boys be okay with it? I mean uh-” The low rumble of his laugh stop’s your nervous babbling and he runs his nose against your cheek and into your hair, his hand running up your back to your head to push you into his chest. “Hmm well, I already asked them and they’re fine with it. Manager has said that we can rest next weekend, so all that’s left really is for you to agree.”

You smile into his chest, feeling the excitement well up inside you. Your relationship was progressing well and really, there was no reason not to go. “I’m there.” You tell him, shifting your head to look at him and at your words he gives you your favourite dimpled smile and once again that warm and fuzzy hot chocolate feeling was back.

“Don’t try to seduce me though.”

“CHANGKYUN!” You yell, lifting a foot to kick his butt when he ran away, yelling a "GOODBYE MY LOVELY!” into his palms. He stumbled backwards, watching with a grin as you shook your head at him.

09/06/2017

The weather was surprisingly cooler than normal and so you decided that your jogger bottoms and a loose hoodie over your tee was sufficient enough for the supermarket.

You grabbed a trolley along your way inside, pulling the messy list scrunched up inside of your pocket. You briefly looked over the list before moving forward toward the relevant aisles. Just as you were scanning the shelves your phone went off.

“Hello.”

“What ya doin~”

“Snack run for tomorrow.” You answer distractedly looking for the brand of dip you always have with your tortilla crisps.

“Ooo yay! Are you getting-”

“I’m looking for it now. I might have to buy it from the corner shop.”

“Okay, don’t forget popcorn.”

“It’s on my list.”

“And chocolate, preferably M&Ms.”

“On the list.”

“And-”

“Really Changkyun? You’re going to list every snack possible? I got it covered, okay?” Changkyun’s laugh rings out over the speaker. “Just wanna be prepared babe.” You roll your eyes, smiling a little as you continue to browse.  “I should have just come with you. ohmygosh it would have been our first grocery shopping trip together. ohmygosh we should totally just move in together already.”

You laugh, despite the pink tinge on your cheeks. The thought of living with Changkyun made you feel a number of things, the possibilities running through your mind.

“Steady on Kyun, we’re only having our first sleep over now!” And then before he can get a word out, “You’re distracting me. Byeeeee!” “hey wa-” you hang up, a giggle escaping your lips when you imagine the irritated expression he must be making at his phone. You slip your phone back into your pocket and continue shopping for more snacks, a smile on your face.

10/06/2017

Today was the day. You were already rather sleepy, having spent the previous night repacking over and over and feeling too nervous and excited to fall asleep straight away.

You rolled over onto your side, reaching for your phone on the bedside table and squinted your eyes enough to check the time and to also see that you had a message from no other than Changkyun. A smile immediately formed when you read his message.

‘Can’t wait to see you baby! We’re going to have so much fun. See you later x’

You weren’t meant to go around until later that evening, around 6ish. But, that didn’t stop the silly snaps Changkyun sent your way. While you were double checking that you had packed what you needed, Changkyun spammed you with shot’s that showed a very tasteful view of his nostrils.

‘Look babe, it’s a cave explorer.’ He captioned one with a very badly doodled stickman hanging from his nostril. You laughed, taking your own unflattering picture, nostrils and all, tapping the pen icon to doodle. You captioned it, laughing as you sent it.

You shortly received a notification that read ‘screen shot’ prompting you to instantly message him.

You: Why did you screen shot asdfghj :/

CK: BABE!

CK: COS IT’S A MASTERPIECE

CK: ‘THEY FOUND THE BAT CAVE’ AND THE BAT DOODLE! LIKE THIS IS THE KIND OF SHIT THAT NEEDS TO BE SAVED YOU KNOW!

You: but it'S MY NOSTRILS

CK: Like the most beautiful nostrils in the world

You: That’s weird, but as it’s you, I’m not surprised.

You: I didn’t even screenshot yours!

After that message, you received a snap, smiling when you saw it was the same picture and quickly screenshot it.

CK: Since I went to an awful lot of trouble to send that to you make it your screensaver so that we can have a matching one!

You: You’re cheesy af.

CK: Only for you babe.

You smile at your phone, thumb navigating on the screen till you had done what he wanted. Taking a screenshot you sent it to Changkyun.

You: The things I do for you.

CK: That’s why I like you so much

He replied with a screenshot of his phone, showing you that he had changed his screensaver too. You laughed, feeling a strange sense of happiness from the mere act of having each other as your screensaver.

It was finally time. As you waited for the lift you felt your stomach tighten, a range of emotions washing over you. Changkyun had been spamming you most of the day with cute messages of how he couldn’t wait and pictures of him scowling at the clock, telling it to hurry up so that his baby could arrive.

The short ride in the lift up to Changkyun’s floor felt like an eternity and your hands had started to get clammy. By the time you had left the lift, you were in a daze taking small steps towards his door. A few small deep breathes and then you were lifting your finger to the doorbell.

Almost instantly you heard movement behind the door but when you heard the “ooaf!” you brows knitted together in confusion. It sounded as if someone had fallen and then you heard his voice. “Hyung, don’t be an arse!” The door was pulled open and your eye’s drifted up to see a raven haired beauty with his thick arm against the doorframe, smiling wide at you. “Hey sweetheart! How are you?”

Just as you were about to reply you heard a war cry and looked around Hoseok to see Changkyun kneeling on the floor, pushing himself up. “Excuse me, boyfriend coming through.” And you felt a warmth settle within you and materialize into a bright smile as Changkyun tickled Hoseok’s sides, causing him to jerk from the door so he could finally stand in front of you. You were already on your toes, head craning closer to him as his hands lightly settled on your hips and his lips met yours for a short, loving peck. “Hey there.” He whispered. “Hey there yourself.”

“That was playing dirty Kyun, you know I’m ticklish!”

“And you know I have about as much strength as a noodle, yet you thought it was nice to get Jooheon to hold me on the floor.”

“Where did he go?”

Changkyun grinned as he shuffled you both backwards into the apartment. “I told him I saw a bug.”

You giggled and Hoseok stared at Changkyun before concluding: “You’re a demon. Anyway, I’m sorry I can’t stick around sweetheart, I’m going on a date! But, I’ll see you later?” He asked with a cute grin.

“Of course! I’ll wait for you.” You shot him heart fingers and Hoseok put a hand on his chest, jolting back dramatically as if he’d been shot. Suddenly a hand clasped over your fingers and a pouting Changkyun whined at Hoseok. “Go get your own girlfriend, this one’s mine. Also, going for coffee with Kihyun is not a date.”

Hoseok looked offended. He decided to ignore Changkyun, blowing a kiss at you with a little wink before he was leaving you giggling when he shut the door behind him. “Thought he’d never leave.” Changkyun grumbled to which you rolled your eyes, shoving him toward the living room. “Oh hush you big baby.” And then reaching up to pinch his cheek. “My big baby.” And you were right to say so, Changkyun had a shit-eating grin on his face.

You unzipped your coat and was in the process of pulling it off when you heard a dramatic gasp. You look over at Changkyun whom was staring at you with his mouth agape. “What?” He clenched his eyes shut and threw his head back, “I thought I said not to seduce me.”

You looked down at yourself. Jeans and one of Changkyun’s hoodies. Then you looked back at him with an expression that was summed up to one thing: “Huh?”

He sighed, rolling his eyes at you as if it were obvious why you were a little seductress. He held his pointer finger up, “One, you’re totally wearing your make-my-butt-look-big jeans,”

“They’re my favourite jeans!”

He ignored you. “Two, you’re in my home, wearing my hoodie. Do you know what a sucker guys are when their girl wears their hoodie?”

You pull your neck back till you have a triple chin. Grinning like a creep you say, “Really?” Changkyun laughed. “You’re still sexy with that face babe.” “Don’t tell me what I already know.”

You put your bag in Changkyun’s room and notice someone on their bed with their headphones in. You sneak up and attack. “OH MY GOD!” He’s sweating already and your laughter causes you to drop to the floor, tears nearly escaping your eyes when you saw the startled expression on Jooheon’s face. “YOU AND YOUR BOYFRIEND ARE EVIL!” You can’t stop laughing, face aching from the permanent smile and stomach tight as your laughter doesn’t cease.

“Sorry Heonie, you’re just so easy to scare.” He shoves your head. “Sleep with an eye open tonight girl.” You hold your hands up “Ooo so scared.” He grumbled, putting his headphones back in to ignore you and you laugh as you left to go back to the living room.

“Kyuuuuun.” He made a noise of acknowledgement as he searched for the right disk. “Would it be mean to do a camera prank on Jooheon?” He stopped what he was doing and looked up at you with a smirk, “Yes it would be.”

You told him your plans, Changkyun shaking his head in disbelief at you, but giving you a proud pat on the back nonetheless. “I have taught you well young one.” “I’m a year older than you.” You deadpanned. He waved his hand, “technicalities.”

He turned toward the TV and you follow him to the sofa. “Right, what do you want to eat? Kihyun won’t be back till later, so not much edible food to eat now.”

“Pizza?

“Cool.”

The pizza should be arriving in around 20 minutes and so you both spend time chatting on the sofa with the music channel on in the background. All of a sudden Changkyun has shot out of his seat, cutting himself off as he stands in front of you. When you hear the opening beat you’re already on the verge of laughing.

Changkyun gets into position and when you see his entire expression switch you’re gone. His hand is up and shaking.

Every day it rings, the bell bell bell

Now care for me

I don’t wanna waste my battery

It keeps coming, It keeps coming

Like my phone’s gonna explode

He’s singing the words in his rough voice, hips shaking and turning as he sings along to none other than Twice’ cheer up. He keeps eye contact with you the whole time and you’re in fits.

I don’t know, I don’t know, he says he can’t even breathe

He says he’s struggling because of me

He says his heart is dropping, why?

He says that I’m so pretty

I’m not showing off or anything

His big smile is infectious and you find yourself singing along with him as he does the routine. He blinks his eyes cutely and shakes his head at all the right moments.

Sorry I couldn’t pick up earlier

I was meeting my friends, shy shy shy

I can’t really meet you right now, sorry

I’ll call you a little later

His pointer fingers came together and he had the cutest expression that made you melt and nearly say ‘aw’ out loud. But you really lost it when he shouted ‘shy shy shy’ his fists perfectly doing the movements and you swear you had heart eyes when you whined, “Kyun~” cos your heart was definitely about to burst.

He winked at you as he continued and he was anticipating the best moment as he bounced and then, just as the chorus came on:

CHEER UP BABY CHEER UP BABY

Cheer up a little more

A girl can’t give her heart too easily

That’s how you’ll get to like me even more

I’ll act calm, as if it’s nothing

So you won’t know that I like you

just get it together

and then baby CHEER UP

You jumped up and facing him began to belt the words back at him. “CHEER UP BABY CHEER UP BABY” The room was filled with your loud singing and over exaggerated dancing. Head rocking back as your hands came up and shot out as the dance did.

As the chorus came to an end, “AND THEN BABY CHEER UP~” Changkyun belted the line, out of key as he lifted you and spun you around, your singing cutting off in place of your wild laughter. “KYUN!” You yell and feel the air whip around you as he clumsily drops you onto the sofa, head on your stomach as he laughs and you stop at the sound, heart clenching almost painfully hearing something so pure.

It makes you take his head in your hands and Changkyun stops as he stares up at your soft eyes. “Idiot… what if you hurt yourself.” And then you lean forward to leave a peck at his lips. You pull back, feeling the blush start to heat on your cheeks and then Changkyun leans upwards, chasing for lips that melt against his when they finally connect.

When you part he whispers, “I can take the pain if it's for you.” Your eyes widen and you shove his head away. “Stop hanging around Hoseok!”

A few more songs play and then the doorbell goes off. Changkyun raises from the sofa, scrunching his face as he raises his fists in the air, deepening his voice like a warrior, “PI-ZZAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA” You shake your head watching him rush to the door, money in hand.

Changkyun takes the pizza and bags while handing the money over with a thank you. He settles on the floor, spreading the bags and boxes of pizza out on the empty space.

“Here ya go love.” Changkyun says taking your wedges out of the bag and handing you the garlic sauce. “Oh God, thank you!”

You both barely speak between stuffing wedges, garlic bread and cheesy pizza into your mouth. “Oh babe, c’mere.” You beck Changkyun toward you and your thumb swipes at the tomato sauce messily smeared on the corner of his lips. You lick the sauce off your thumb and Changkyun grins at you before he’s leaning forward, lips on yours and you feel the little swipe of his tongue against your lips before he’s sitting back. “That was my sauce love.” You roll your eyes, any excuse, but still, Changkyun doesn’t fail to make your heart race.

You’re barely paying any attention to the low budget sci-fi movie playing on the TV and when you go to reach for the coke you remember your plan from earlier.

“Kyunnie… Shall we go buy a drink?” Changyun looks up at you, pizza wedged in his mouth as he smiles evilly back at you.

Changkyun went into his room where Jooheon was and found him lying on his bed scrolling on his phone with his earphones in.

He poked him till Jooheon took his earphones out. “Heon, we’re going to the shops want anything?” Jooheon pondered for a moment before giving a gentle smile as he said, “No, thanks.” And Changkyun really felt evil seeing his cute angelic smile, before turning and walking out the room.

He gave you the thumbs up and you picked up both of your shoes and hid them behind a pot plant. You walked to a cupboard where the power was and before turning it off urged Changkyun to start filming.

Your heart sped up in anticipation as you both got into position. Waiting behind the sofa you took Changkyun’s phone and texted Jooheon.

My Bro: Hey can you check if there’s any dip, thanks.

It took a few minutes before he replied with a simple ‘sure’. You both heard the bedroom door open and as Jooheon walks to the kitchen you can see his silhouette; his hand comes up and switches on the light. Or at least he tries to.

Jooheon grumbles under his breath and you notice the shine of his phone. He tried switching other lights but found they wouldn’t turn on. He whined and swore into the darkness, continuing to shuffle around to the kitchen.

Jooheon navigated his way toward the fridge with his hands, expecting the glow of the fridge to illuminate but found even that wouldn’t work. As he was crouched down you slowly crept from your spot, quietly trying to sneak toward him all the while barely able to muffle your laughs threatening to escape.

“WHERE’S THE DIP?”

“FUCK AKNFD- ARGH OSKNVD MY GOD!” Jooheon hit his head on the fridge in shock, babbling out nonsense words as he screamed. You made out him clutching his chest and eyes squeezed shut and laughed loudly while the lights began to turn on - Changkyun turning the electricity back on.

The camera was in Jooheon’s face. He was the perfect mess of sweat and heavy breaths and the expression on his face nearly made you feel bad, except you were a little shit so not really.

“You guys are evil!” Jooheon blubbered, still clutching his chest.

You can’t stop laughing and Changkyun smiles, taking in the way your eyes curl and your cheeks raise high in a smile, the laugh that sounds from your lips captivating him. He closes in on you with the camera, your attention turning to him with a big smile. “You are tuning in live to the dorm of one scared Lee Jooheon!”

“I really hate you both.”

“Love you too Jooheon.” Both you and Changkyun said simultaneously before he ended the film.

Jooheon scowled and you felt the tiniest bit bad when you laughed and looped your arm through his and your other through Changkyun’s. “C’mon Heon, we got pizza!” He grumbled something along the lines of “scaring a man and then giving him pizza.”

“Um, Jooheon’s scared of it!”

“Spiders, clowns, the dark, his shadow-

“-HEY!”

“-oh OH GHOSTS”

“Surprised you didn’t guess that sooner babe.” You make a noise of cheer, removing the card on your head.

“You guys are dicks. And FYI I’m only scared of creepy little kid ghosts.”

“You mean the one next to you?”

“WILL YOU STOP YOU DEMONS” Changkyun clapped happily, falling back into the sofa with loud laughter as Jooheon flinched where he sat and nervously looked behind him as if the ghost was really there. “I’m gonna have to sleep with you in your bed now Changkyun.” His laughter ceased then, expression crestfallen as he quickly sat up, quick to say “No! Absolutely not. My baby is sleeping with me.” It was silly but you felt warm tingles spread over your skin, heart clenching as a feeling of adoration for Changkyun washed over you.

“It’s your karma, bastard.”

 Jooheon was forced to bed, Changkyun having to give him cuddles till he fell asleep. The night had passed by quicker than you’d thought it would, but the feelings you felt throughout the night lingered; the fresh memories that took place made you feel warm and you couldn’t help the small smile lift on your face thinking back to the events. It’s late and as you both lie in the silence Changkyun breaks it.

“What do you think happens if a mosquito bites down there?” Your eyes shoot open. “It will hurt rig- ow!” Your teeth detach from his shoulder and you settle yourself again, closing your eyes. “That hurt right?  Probably something like that, but a billion times worse.” You can practically hear the pout in his voice.

“I didn’t realise you were into biting babe.”

“Changkyun I swear…” His muffled laugh broke the silence, before dying down in a content sigh as he melded his body against yours, arms holding your head to his chest, complete warmth washing over the both of you. There was a shyness you felt, the blush rising on your skin, yet you couldn’t help to think that it felt so right. You suddenly felt overwhelmed, a concoction of emotions washing over you till they were conjuring into words that blocked your throat tightly. You took several breaths, trying to swallow the dryness from your throat and this didn’t go unnoticed by Changkyun.

“Is something wrong? Are you uncomfortable like this? We don’t have to sleep like this-”

“-NO! I-i-i um, I mean no, it's just.” your fingers clutched to the material of his shirt almost desperately, your eyes focused on the creases you made, knowing that Changkyun was looking down at you, despite the lights being out. “Don’t,” you took a deep breath, clearing your throat and willing your body to relax, fingers unclenching around his shirt so you could draw random patterns against his chest as a distraction. “Don’t freak out okay, but I think,” you took a larger intake of breath and exhaled as if they were all your tensions and let your eyes fall shut,”but I think I love you.”

It was quiet for a moment, then a moment longer before you were suddenly on your back instead of your side and were being crushed, Changkyun’s arms vice like as they coiled around you and his head nestled into the crook of your neck. “God, I love you too, I’ve loved you for so long my chest hurt, I love you I love you.” he said, raising his head to meet your lips, hard, yet slow, heavy huffs if breath mingled as he made a fire rage inside your chest and ignite every inch of you, hands finding their way into his hair and gripping as he kissed you a moment longer before slowing, sweet caresses of lips passing against lips and then he stopped with a soft lingering peck, head falling back into your neck before he rolled you both onto your sides again. “I definitely love you.” you smiled, feeling tears pool but just shut your eyes and shoved your head into his chest.