#mxj

I’m thinking about being mute. Like selective mutism. I get that it’s like “Not a choice” or whatever but I’m not feeling okay. I’d rather not talk to those who make me uncomfortable. Which is about all my friends. There’s only a couple I feel safe around. And I don’t know if that’s weird or something? The only thing that has come out of me talking is bad memories and bad situations. I don’t want to kiss other people, I don’t want to talk to other people, hell, I’m even at the point where I don’t go to lunch to avoid the people I know are going to be there. I haven’t skipped any classes but I’m thinking about switching schools. I’ve already asked my mother but haven’t gotten a clear answer. I’m thinking of a school more closer to my house so I can do shit easier. And after I graduate, I’m gonna wait a few years until I go to uni so I still have time to talk again, right? I mean, I obviously have to talk for school, with me taking classes that require speech and all. But I think I’m going to be silent. At Tuesday, I’ll be quiet. That gives me time to think this through before I go through with it actually.