#mvrphyy

I’m a survivor [x]

LIFE STORY:Opening Credits: uma thurman - fall out boy (yas this starts the way it was supposed to start yas)Waking Up: break out! break out! - all time lowFirst Day At School: irresistible - fall out boyFalling In Love: got dynamite - demi lovatoFight Song: tfor baltimore (acustic version) - all time lowBreaking Up: heavy heart - gabrielle aplinLife’s OK: your bones - of monsters and menGetting Back Together: all the right moves - onerepublicWedding: keep the change, you filthy animal - all time lowBirth of Child: down by the river - milky chance

Final Battle: like i can - sam smithDeath Scene: heart attack - demi lovato (lmAOOO ISBDIG)Funeral Song: backseat serenade - all time lowEnd Credits: until you’re mine - demi lovato

There is Kai, my wife.

There is Lily, who is amazing to talk to.

There is Steph, who is just the cutest.

There is Bea, who is super awesome.

Okay so I need to put stuff out there, idk, I just feel like it’s becoming too much inside of me and I can’t find a good psychologist at the moment and I can’t continue that search until after the holidays which means in 5-6 weeks.

I can’t stop feeling like I don’t belong. Wherever I am, whoever is around me, at whatever time of day, I feel lost and wrong, like I was pulled into this world and time and everything even though I belong somewhere else.

I don’t know where that feeling comes from or what to do against it and I’m afraid that if I tell someone who helps people like me as a job they put me somewhere crazy people go, and I wouldn’t be able to deal with  that, like, at all. 

I feel like if I just find the right person, a soulmate, everything will be fine, that then I’d forget anything that bothers me, anything that makes me feel sad, that pulls me down, that makes me drown. But on the other hand I know that this soulmate thing is bullshit and that even if there is one perfect soulmate for me out there it is pretty much impossible to find him or her or them or whatever.

I just want to be happy once again, like when I was a child, and, honestly, is that too much too ask?

Whenever I read books or comic, watch shows or movies that play in other times, other worlds, include other species, whenever I see a reality that is different than mine I feel  like I’d be happier in that reality than I am in mine, than I will ever be in mine.

Felling like you will never be happy sucks. It’s sucks more than 38°C in Germany. It sucks more than fighting parents. It sucks more than fighting with your parents. It sucks more than knowing a friend betrayed you. It sucks more than failing a very important exam. It sucks more than I suck dick.

MVRPHYY

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i couldn’t find it (or montysass if that was it.)

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged you’re supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you. At the end choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you : 
Tagged by: bellamyblakesarmy and blakesmilitia!

What was your: 
 Last drink: Coca Cola  Last phone call: My mom Last text message: a pretty good friend Last song you listened to:  Madcon - Don't Worry Last time you cried: yesterday I think

Have you ever: Dated someone twice: No Been cheated on: Nope Kissed someone and regretted it: Not quite sure, but I think yes Lost someone special: Yes Been depressed: Kinda Been drunk and thrown up: Yes, yes, yes.

List three favourite colours: turqoise, green, red

In the last year have you:
 Made a new friend: Yep Fallen out of love: Nah Laughed until you cried: YAS Met someone who changed you: Yeah Found out who your true friends are: Not yet Found out someone who was talking about you: Not sure Kissed anyone on your FB friends list: Uhm yeah I kissed quite a number of people last year

General:

How many people on your FB friends do you know in real life: All of them Do you have any pets: Fish xD Do you want to change your name: I used to, but not anymore What did you do for your last birthday: PARTEEEY What time did you wake up today: 9:30am What were you doing at midnight last night: Playing Jelly Splash xD Name something you cannot wait for: Going to Canada Last time you saw your mother: This morning What are you listening to right now: Nothing Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yup, in primary school What’s getting on your nerves right now: Pretty much everything Blood Type: I don’t even know Nickname: Lari Relationship Status: Single Zodiac Sign: Virgo Pronouns: she/her Favourite TV Show: The 100, Sense8,  Orphan Black, Doctor Who, Orange is The New Black, Game of Thrones Tattoos: Not YET Right or Left: Right. First surgery: None First piercing: Ears. First best friend: PAUL ♥ First sport you joined: Capoeira First vacation: The North Sea I think? First pair of trainers: I don’t remember

Right now: Eating: Nothing Drinking: Coke I’m about to: completely waste my saturday Listening to: Nothing Waiting for: Too much Want kids: Maybe, but I’m not sure Get married: I don’t see the necessity  Career: Journalist is what I want to be... right now I’m just a student

Which is better: Lips or eyes: Lips. Hugs or kisses: Kisses Shorter or taller: Taller. Older or younger: Older Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous with the right amount of romance Nice stomach or nice arms: Stomach Sensitive or loud: LOUD Hook up or relationship: Both at a time Trouble maker or hesitant: Trouble Maker ehehe 

Have you ever: Kissed a stranger: Yes Drank hard liquor: Oh yes Sex on the first date: Nope Broke someone’s heart:  I think so? Had your own heart broken: Oh yes Been arrested: Nope (not yet maybe?) Cried when someone died: Sure Fallen for a friend: Oh yes and it kills you

Do you believe in: Yourself: I try Miracles: Oh, I do Love at first sight: I’m not sure if I believe in it, but I strongly hope it exists Heaven: Not sure. There is something, yes, but what is it? Santa Claus: Never! Kiss on the first date: Yeah Angels: Uhm...not really :D

list 10 favorite characters (per fandom/series), then tag 10 people.

I was tagged by the lovely bellamyblakesarmy

Donna Noble (Doctor Who)

Monty Green (The 100)

Cosima Niehaus (Orphan Black)

Lincoln (The 100)

Riley Blue (Sense8)

Amy Pond (Doctor Who)

Arya Stark (Game of Thrones)

Poussey Washington (Orange is The New Black)

Octavia Blake (The 100)

Cal Morrison (Orphan Black)

(choosing was like the hardest thing EVER)

You had me at “also sleep” x) <3 Haha! I find you all very dateable! Maybe I’m just very easy? Hmm =P