#muse: patrick

Patrick Flanagan sat in his dimly lit apartment, nursing a tumbler of whiskey that had long since lost its bite. Outside, the streets of Los Angeles sparkled with Christmas cheer - strings of colored lights glimmered in apartment windows, and carolers’ voices drifted up from the sidewalk below. It was a far cry from the sterile hum of prison lights or the cold stone streets of Glasgow where he’d grown up. Not even Christmas in Vegas felt right. But Patrick didn’t care. He’d stopped caring about Christmas a long time ago.

Two years in prison had hardened him further, though he thought he was already granite before they locked him up. What softened him now was the quiet - a deafening, nagging sort of silence that followed him like a shadow. His mother had been gone for three years, murdered during a robbery gone wrong back in Glasgow, just weeks after he’d been arrested in Las Vegas. That ache never went away, no matter how many drinks he poured or how many bitter curses he whispered under his breath.

The smell of pine wafted faintly from somewhere outside. Patrick’s neighbor had dragged a fresh Christmas tree up the stairs earlier that day, her kids chattering excitedly about Santa Claus as they passed his door. He’d ignored their cheery greetings, retreating further into the solitude of his apartment. Now, the faint scent only made him feel more alone.

He stood and walked to the window, staring down at the street below. Families bustled along the sidewalks, arms full of shopping bags and wrapped gifts. The sound of bells jingling from a Salvation Army volunteer’s bucket mixed with snippets of carols from a nearby speaker. The warmth of it all grated on his nerves, but beneath the irritation was a hollow ache he couldn’t ignore.

Patrick glanced at the corner of his living room, where a small cardboard box sat unopened. It had arrived two days ago, addressed to him in neat, unfamiliar handwriting. He hadn’t had the nerve to open it yet. He wasn’t sure who would even send him something; he’d burned most of his bridges years ago. But curiosity gnawed at him now.

With a resigned sigh, he crossed the room and knelt by the box. He sliced through the tape with a kitchen knife and pulled back the flaps. Inside was a small, artificial Christmas tree, complete with a string of battery-operated lights and a handwritten note.

“Patrick,

Christmas is a time for second chances, for remembering the good in the world and in yourself. Let the light of this tree remind you of what truly matters - love, hope, and the kindness you still have to give. Merry Christmas.”

There was no signature, no indication of who it was from. Patrick sat back on his heels, staring at the note. His first instinct was skepticism - a joke, maybe, or some misguided act of charity. But as he read the words again, he felt something shift. Something quieter. Warmer.

Patrick set the note aside and pulled the little tree from the box. It was a cheap thing, its plastic branches slightly bent from being crammed in the packaging. But as he set it on the coffee table and wound the lights around it, he couldn’t deny the small spark of life it brought to the room. He flicked on the lights, and the tiny bulbs twinkled softly, casting a gentle glow that seemed to soften the edges of the apartment.

He sat back on the couch, the whiskey forgotten on the table. For a long time, he just stared at the tree, letting its quiet presence fill the space. The scent of pine from his neighbor’s tree mingled with the faint glow of the lights, and for the first time in years, the silence didn’t feel so suffocating.

Patrick leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees. He didn’t know who had sent the tree, and maybe it didn’t matter. What mattered was the flicker of something it had sparked in him - a reminder that, despite everything, there was still good in the world. And maybe, just maybe, there was still good in him, too.

Patrick Flanagan's day started the same as it had for the past three months: early, quiet, and reflective. The California sun filtered through the blinds of his modest apartment, far from the lavish penthouses of his past life in Las Vegas. He rose from bed, his muscles still tight from the boxing workout the day before - a habit he’d carried over from his time in prison. It was one of the few things that kept him grounded.

After a quick shower, Patrick dressed in his typical work attire: a button-up shirt with rolled-up sleeves, dark jeans, and leather boots. He had a rugged, approachable look that contrasted with his sharply intelligent eyes and his thick Scottish accent. He still carried the weight of his old life, though, and the reflection in the mirror showed a man who had been through the wringer - both by his own doing and by circumstances beyond his control.

He poured himself a cup of strong coffee and looked at the framed photo of his mother on the kitchen counter. She was smiling, standing outside their Glasgow flat, back when life seemed simpler, even if it wasn’t. The thought of her made his chest tighten, and his grip on the mug faltered. Her murder still haunted him, even though he’d tried to bury it deep. His mother had done everything for him, and in the end, it wasn’t enough to keep the darkness away.

Patrick left the apartment, heading to the college where he now worked. As a professor of business management, he lectured to bright-eyed students who had no idea about his past. Some days he felt like an imposter, teaching them about business ethics and success strategies when he’d spent years manipulating systems for criminal gain. But he’d learned the hard way that legitimate success meant something different - and it was what his mother would’ve wanted for him.

His lecture today was on leadership. Irony wasn’t lost on him as he talked about integrity and trust in business relationships. "A true leader knows when to walk away," he told the class. "Not out of fear, but because they see the bigger picture." His students scribbled notes, eyes wide as they absorbed his every word. To them, Patrick was an expert in the field, a businessman with real-world experience. They didn’t need to know about his time running a casino as a front for laundering money and dealing drugs, or the years he spent in a federal prison for it.

By the time the afternoon rolled around, Patrick was tired. Teaching was more exhausting than anything he’d ever done. He stopped by a local diner on his way home, ordering a plate of shepherd's pie - one of the few things that reminded him of home. As he ate, his thoughts wandered back to Kat. He hadn’t heard from her since the day she testified against him in court. He didn’t blame her, though. She’d been doing her job, and in the end, he couldn’t hate her for it. He loved her, still did, but that was a closed chapter in his life.

When he finally arrived back at his apartment, the sun was setting, casting a golden glow through the windows. He kicked off his boots and sank into the worn leather armchair by the window. For the first time in years, he was trying to live a quiet life, one his mother would’ve been proud of. He closed his eyes, letting the stillness wash over him.

The knock on the door shattered that peace. Patrick’s eyes snapped open, and a chill ran down his spine. He stood, crossing the room in a few quick strides. When he opened the door, his stomach dropped.

Two men stood there. Big, rough-looking Scots with hard faces, the kind of men Patrick knew all too well. They had the unmistakable look of old gang members, the kind of guys who didn’t just stop by for a friendly chat. “Patrick,” the taller one said, a crooked grin on his face. “Long time, mate.”

Patrick didn’t answer, but his jaw clenched. He knew why they were here. The shorter one stepped forward, his eyes cold and predatory. “We’ve got a problem, Pat. Seems you’ve been out of the game a bit too long. Some of the boys back home are startin’ to wonder if you might’ve become... well, a liability.” Patrick felt the muscles in his neck tighten. “I’m done,” he said, voice low and controlled. “You know that.”

“Aye, that’s what they all say,” the tall one chuckled, though his eyes were hard. “But you see, we can’t afford you running your mouth. Too many secrets. Too much to lose.” The shorter one’s hand hovered near his jacket, where Patrick knew a gun was probably tucked away. “You’re coming back with us, Patrick. Or...” He didn’t need to finish the sentence.

Patrick’s heart pounded, but his face remained calm. “I’m not coming back. If you think I’m a rat, you’d already be dead. I didn’t say a word in court, and I won’t start now.” The tall one leaned in, his breath hot and sour. “We don’t care. You know too much. Either you come with us, or we settle this here.” Patrick’s mind raced. He’d walked away from that life. He’d paid his dues, served his time, but these men - they didn’t care about redemption. The only way out was either back into the pit or to fight his way out.

“I’ve got nothing left to give you,” Patrick said softly. “If you want to settle this, then let’s finish it right here.” For a moment, there was silence, thick with tension. Then, with a quick, brutal motion, the shorter man pulled his gun.

But Patrick was faster.

In a flash, he grabbed a heavy lamp from the nearby table and swung it with all his strength. It smashed into the man’s wrist, sending the gun clattering to the floor. The taller man lunged at Patrick, but he sidestepped, driving his elbow into the man’s throat. He didn’t stop to think, just let the old instincts take over - instincts he thought he’d buried.

The fight was brutal, fast, and messy. But in the end, both men lay unconscious on the floor, and Patrick stood over them, breathing hard. He looked down at them, feeling the weight of his past crashing back into him. No matter how far he ran, how hard he tried to live a different life, the darkness would always follow.

leaves their dirty clothes on the floor- oh this is patrick and if cleo gets upset about it he will hide the evidence sooner than he would adjust his behavior.... at least it's out of sight for her! she doesn't need to know what his bedroom looks like djskhakdf

forgets to run the dish washer- i think this would be both of them??? they'd set up a house rule to wash dishes right away and then run the dishwasher at the end of the day before going to bed, but then they'd start watching a movie or something and get distracted and not do it

pumps gas for the car- patrick does this bc he needs to be Manly for some reason, plus i think cleo wouldn't like doing this anyway and why should she when she has a man right there!

drives when they’re going somewhere- does cleo drive?? i think patrick can.... he'd offer to do it most of the time i think and he could sometimes be a bit of a backseat driver 😬

rearranges the furniture- i think cleo would suggest it and have a bunch of ideas that she 100% planned to do but patrick would just get to it first. she'd come home from work one day to a totally new living room

falls asleep with the TV on- sigh..... patrick and yes it's bc he's a man

gets to use the bathroom first- cleo of course :3c it's her house patrick just lives in it

decides the temperature for the ac/heater- patrick will usually let cleo pick but he def tries to keep the heat down to save money on bills lol

sets up holiday decorations- they claim places in the house to decorate and make it a competition of speed and artistry. the house never looks the same two years in a row bc they pick themes and make/buy new decorations all the time

leaves the lights on- i don't think either of them would have this issue so much?? patrick actively turns off lights throughout the day bc again, save money on bills asdkjfadsf. so even if cleo forgot it'd be only a matter of minutes before patrick turned it off and then reminded her lol

uses the bathroom with the door open- tbh patrick seems like the kind of guy who'd leave the door ajar a lot of the time, if you don't like it then don't look

Who is more aggressive in bed? - it's patrick are we kidding

Lights on or off?- off!

Who does what chores?- they will maybe both do it when it crosses their mind (exceedingly rarely) but i think patrick does them more

Who gets babied when they’re sick?- i'm picturing reno showing up with soup and some pills like here u go honey *kisses forehead*

Who makes breakfast?- reno but it's 5am and they haven't gone to bed yet

Where would they go on their honeymoon?- on a bender?? idk

What are their quirks while sleeping?- nightly dreamwalks where.... things happen lol

What is their favorite activity as a family?- they get high af and make weird art together

Who is the stricter parent?- can you even picture these two with kids??? it's patrick but can you picture it??

Who would be the big spoon?- patrick there's no discussion

Who would wake up first?- reno bc his sleep schedule is fucked

Do they have nicknames for each other?- i think patrick exclusively calls reno 'dude' and 'man' and hasn't called him by his name in years

What happened when they met each other’s parents?- idk but i can't imagine it wasn't awkward

How do they apologize after an argument?- i think reno will apologize in a normal time frame; patrick will mumble something three weeks after the fight

What would they be like as parents?- again... can you imagine this... i cannot. i think they'd tease the hell out of the kids

Who is the better cook?- reno bc he.... cooks period

Who is more romantic?- hmmm reno i think in his weird cute way

What sort of gifts do they get for each other?- they find the most random weird shit and collect them like magpies

Who gets jealous easiest?- patrick sees someone Looking at reno and is like hm?? who's that??? have you fucked??

Who gets more excited for events? (e.g. birthdays, christmas…etc)- hmmm reno, if he remembers them

Who is the most adventurous?- reno i think

Who is the most protective?- patrick i think

What would they have been like as childhood sweethearts?- these two would have been the Worst. the most insufferable class clown pranksters who make everyone's life worse