#multilingual things

so goodbye past title.

now i have to study endocrine 😭😭😭

I have to say goodbye to yaomei's limbic system

yeah. cortisol levels go brrr

anyway.

changing my titles make me feels happier abt my studying.

ALSO

I regret speedreading tgcf and svsss. i cant remember shit. i have decent memory but i can't remember specific characterizations due to lack of marination of the original text in my noggin. and then i suddenly remember it in the middle of the night— like how xie lian kinda passed on to jun wu the hope he had after he lost everything THRU A HAT— and him choosing to end the cycle of abuse instead of being trapped in it. the mirroring on that scene was SOOOO FUN AND NICE and i wanted to cry about it.

Also sometimes i just can't understand jackshit in books bc english is not my first language. no matter how long I've known this language, i still get some definitions wrong and being multilingual also has become my insecurity whenever i write. i still feel dumb and stupid for not knowing the language entirely.

im working on it tho, i just, little me feels a bit sad whenever i see a "big" word and i can't remember the definition of it immediately.

thank god for google tho.

What’s it like to be able to read fanfics written in different languages?

Do I say “ant,” or “aunt,” or “tía,” or “tita?”

When you’re more straightforward in another language than you are in your first: