#mtsg

I'm aware of it's presence, yes, but I don't quite see myself as something that should exist. Like I'm some sort of glitch the universe made and now I'm stuck here without a purpose until everything is somehow fixed. 

I don't have goals nor dreams and everything that I do seems to lack any meaning. 

And then I wonder -is there any actual point in my being here? No... not in the long run.. 

and I can't see past that at all... 

I feel as though I need someone else to be my anchor for me-to keep me grounded and to keep me being real. Though I don't have that -and I don't need that all the time, but sometimes I panic. That's when I need that someone else...but I feel like 

I'd be a bother to people 

even if I'm not that just tends to make me panic either way

and I guess I just think too much about stuff like that and every time I feel so distressed.