ugggghhhh, why is everything creepypasta related i do so terrible?? like everytime i like a character I don't know about i just instantly work up new headcanons for them and other dumb things. Like Ms.p, i headcanoned her soooooooo far away from how she actually is that it's pretty embarrassing :/ i don't know much about her but i already have a tooooon of cringey fangirl headcanons for her. The dumbest one I can think of is her having the one-sided love/hate relationship with zalgo (it's extremely unrealistic ik) and it was sort of like zalgo was hopelessly/desperately in love but she just doesn't care and pretty much despises him. Or (god this one's extra cringey) I've always sort of headcanoned BEN as transfeminine (i think that's the word???). It just made sense to me and I can't really describe it?? (the most embarrassing part) i ship ticcidrowned heavily, i pictured toby like the YouTube guy (that does eyeless jack/jeff/toby/masky/hoodie voices) i think kastoway described him as a cold and detached jerk so i could always see him just being himself around BEN, also isn't toby biromantic asexual? i think kastoway said that but i could be wrong. I try to do good by kagekao but I'm pretty sure I messed him up too.
Blehhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, my headcanons for jack are probably worse (as a dumb shipper) i always see jack as a cold/ruthless monster that has a surprisingly nice body but a messed up face. My fave headcanon for his face is the one where he has no cheeks or lips, just very big and hella sharp teeth. I'm just another one of the dumb fangirls destroying the fandom that's barely even alive, like why can't i like it for the horror???? why do i have to pretty much romanticize everything about them?? why can't I just make them out to be the ruthless killers/monsters that they are??? i FRICK, my headcanons for Jeff are so bad they'd make people cringe to death
god my ideas are stupid, they're always Creepypasta x Oc. Never something original and I can't even write my stupid ideas bc i don't even know how I'd begin, I can write notes/come up with characters/backgrounds but i can't write it >://
bleh, i used to get excited about them but now i just feel bleh. I guess I just feel like I'm helping destroy the entire fandom that a lot of people enjoy for the actual horror. My chest hurts and I want to cry bc all i actually am is a dumb shipping fangirl that can't even write her own ideas, like I'm so pathetic, i ship KILLERS who in real life probably just kill my Oc. she doesn't even make sense and i probably just project onto her. I'm thinking of just leaving creepypasta entirely, all i do is ship things, ruin people's Oc's and come up with dumb ideas that no one likes bc they're just too unrealistic.
whoever looks at this I'm sorry for making you cringe so much it's just me being a pathetic crybaby for no reason.
