Whatās happening!
Why am I here but not writing? Whatās going on? Under the cut!
So this isnāt an attention seeking post, and I am definitely not looking for sympathy right now. But on May 23rd, as I posted before, I was diagnosed with MS.
Well, almost immediately after my diagnoses, I started to experience one of the scary things that happens with this disease. Itās called the MS Hug. For people who donāt know, the hug is likeĀ your body being squeezed by an invisible force. Itās caused by nerves misfiring in your brain.
Iām not in any medical danger, and I have a team of professionals who are working with me. But whatās going on in simple terms?
1. I canāt breathe! Not properly. My chest feels constricted, and the medical professionals have assessed that this is due to MS and not problems with my lungs.Ā
In Ms, when you experience a new symptom that persists for at LEAST 24-48Ā hours, itās called a relapse. Iām having my second MS relapse in 2 years, which means I now qualify for disease altering treatment.
How does this affect my writing? Well
2. Iām exhausted. Because I canāt breathe, itās difficult to relax enough to fall asleep. Besides this, the pressure on my abdomen presses on my bladder, so I have to pee every 45 minutes. I donāt get to sleep longer than 2 hours before my body is desperate to use the washroom. So I am tired.
3. Being this tired, I have very little muse to write. I canāt concentrate, and I mix up my words a lot. My sclerosis is mainly on the spinal cord, and the language centers of the brain. So when my neurological symptoms relapse like this, itās difficult to process and portray a character!Ā
Iāve been posting a lot that Iām tired, and that Iām kind of on hiatus for medical reasons. But this post is a deeper look for people who are curious. Iām okay, Iāve got support, but I donāt know how long itāll last. Iāll do my best to write when I can.
I appreciate people sending in asks and memes while Iām gone, and Iām happy to send in memes to people as well. Iām here, but Iām not. ā„














