You did not text me for a week and it is actually okay. At least, I do not know what’s up about you. I do not know where you are, and what are you doing. And I’m totally fine with that.
Then you liked my picture and everything blew away. Like things are already done then a strong wind push the building, and it’s now back to zero. (Lol, just trying to use some metaphor. I know it’s unacceptable and I am sorry) I am like, “there it goes again”. No, to be exact: “here I am again, feelings overload again in just a single thing he did which I truly know that does not have any meaning to him”. Dammit. Why are you like that? (I am using projection here) Why? My gosh, man.
If I am so weak I would get my phone and text you right now and ask how are you, and tell you I miss you. And ask if we can meet up or something, or maybe catch up, or just talk about updates about you, or even just some silly random things.
But this time I won’t even if I can and would love to. I do not care anymore in “what might have been?”. Duh. He does not care why should I? This time I would use a thing that I know can worsen a situation and took away chances, you know that thing pride. Yes.
