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millie’s long list of malex fics | Innuendo by Anonymous

Alex showed up for him, because showing up was what Alex did now. He showed up wearing a disappointed face, but Michael understood that was his prerogative, given the circumstances. 

“This is a low, Guerin, even for you,” Alex said. “It’s nine-thirty in the morning.”

Michael shook his head. “A low? Nah. This is a regular day at the office.”

Michael and Alex try. They really, really do. They also visit a Natural Wonder.

comment: i know i don’t need to sell you on an anonymous fic. as always, dealing with the hard conversations head on, this fic deals with michael and alex coming to terms with some things, taking a road trip to the grand canyon, and terrible innuendo that earns michael some groans (not the good kind). i like the bluntness of anonymous’ writing, and the way it’s simultaneously wonderfully poetic. another five star fic!

millie’s long list of malex fics | The World Forgetting, By The World Forgot by Anonymous

Valentine’s Day, Alex thinks grimly.

A holiday invented by greeting card companies to make ordinary people feel like shit.

Maybe that’s why he’s driving out to the desert with no particular destination in mind. To get away from it all. The paper hearts. The pink bunting. The Valentine’s Special at the Crashdown. His happily paired-up friends. Liz and Max. Max recently came back from the dead; Alex is still hazy on the specifics. Point is, Liz and Max, together again, happily ever after. Even Maria has a boyfriend now, though Alex can’t recall his name. Doesn’t matter. His two best friends have their boyfriends, he has none, so why not waste a tank of gas driving aimlessly through the desert..

Michael and Alex erase each other from their memories. It does not go according to plan.

comment: look, it’s an anonymous fic i don’t need to sell this to you guys. but let me say; i was super not prepared for this baby at the end of rnm week. i’ve never seen eternal sunshine of the spotless mind but if it’s as devastating as this fic, i’m not sure i could handle it. thankfully, anonymous writes so brilliantly that even though my heart was breaking for a great portion of this fic, i enjoyed every second of it. it’s such a fascinating idea and anonymous executes it perfectly; the slide through alex’s memories was particularly evocative and had me sobbing by the end. it’ honestly just another masterpiece from our wonderful, elusive anoymous. thank you again, dude!

millie’s long list of malex fics | The Light-Years by Anonymous

Why did anyone think it would be easy?

Sure, he was in love. Limitless undying love which shined around him like a million suns and fuck the Beatles for providing him with the kind of overblown metaphors that leapt too readily to mind these days. He was in love. But for ten long years love had done his heart no favors when it taught him to crawl over blasted glass and fill his emptiness with broken things. Twenty-eight was too old to be young again, so why did people expect love to make him replete?

His new life was hammered out along the exposed, unforgiving lines of a brutalist architecture. Up a lover, down a brother. Friends and family, distinctly articulated and grouped together in a unified whole. Him and Alex, the raw and unpretentious honesty of their two-in-oneness.

There was nothing easy about it.

what happens after i love you. Michael starts picking up transmissions from another galaxy.

comment: i was a fool to think that satellites gone would remain my fave anonymous fic, that it would remain the most emotionally traumatising for me (in a good way, of course). i’m always happy to be wrong if it means more amazing fics like this though, because anonymous gone and done it again. this one is.... whoo. it’s heavy, folks. heavy in good good themes, beautiful descriptions, ridiculous boys, fantastic michael guerin characterisation, sex and love and talking and missing the point and insane rides through the ship console that left me stuttering for breath at the end. there’s no shying away from the hard topics in anonymous’ fics, which sometimes i hate but mostly i appreciate and love. i always leave anonymous’ fics heavy with emotion, not always happy per-say but always to-the-bone satisfied. this one’s no exception. it might actually be the perfect example. there isn’t an emotional story beat it creates that it doesn’t answer for you at some point. happy, sad, content, amazed; all i know is you gotta get over there and read this bad boy.

millie’s long list of malex fics | Satellite's Gone by Anonymous

Michael leaves on a Tuesday. A Tuesday like any other, without fanfare. No meteorological disruptions. Lying in bed, Alex stares at the clock. 08:57. He wonders where Max and Isobel are. Are they holding hands in the desert, watching from a safe distance as their brother fires up the craft that will carry him away? Or are they hiding in their beds like Alex, wishing they could turn the time around, because they can’t bear to see him go? 08:58. Give me a reason to stay, Michael had pleaded, but Alex couldn’t do it. Couldn’t be that reason. Not after everything that happened. Their terrible, terrible love. Michael had stardust in his soul and Alex was earthbound with a titanium leg. Go, he said. 08:59. No turning back now. Commencing countdown. I’m sorry, he thinks (ten, nine, eight) If you asked me now I wouldn’t hesitate (seven six five) I would even go with you (four three two) But it’s too late now (one)

09:00 (Liftoff) He closes his eyes. Michael is gone. He’s rising higher higher higher, Earth falling away, breaking through the clouds and the stratosphere and it’s bright, so bright. Then nothing but stars and space-black night..

Michael leaves the planet.

comment: so there's an amazing anonymous writer floating around out there writing masterpieces like this. i cried the first time through this beauty. i don't know what it is about this fic but i'm hooked and it's already finished?? the dialogue is witty, the metaphors and stunning and somehow not cliche. this fic is heartbreaking until it isn't. i really don't know what else to say except: go read it!

millie’s long list of malex fics | Hell Ain't Half Full (take me with you) by Anonymous

Jesse Manes fired.

Alex dropped.

Michael screamed.

And suddenly Manes was flying backwards. He smashed into the wall. There was a sickening crack and he dropped, limp as a ragdoll. Head at an odd angle.

Then Alex groaned, sitting up slowly. In an instant Michael was on his knees at his side, cradling him against his chest. Gingerly he touched the side of Alex’s head; his fingers came away tacky with blood. “Graze,” Alex mumbled. “Bullet just grazed me.”

Michael makes his first kill and spirals downward. Alex meets him at the bottom.

comment: god, anonymous continues to slay me with their fics. this one is a little darker than satellite gone and deals with michael’s spiral after he kills for the first time. he’s pumped up on killing adrenaline but alex is there to help him land safely. i think it actually acts as a fantastic character study, kind of a juxtaposition as to how max handled his adrenaline, and the characterisation of alex is, again, just beautiful. i find myself rereading paragraphs of this fic just so that i don’t have to move on and be closer to the end of it. speaking of endings, despite the heavy themes throughout the fic, they’ve managed to end it in, if not a good, then at least peaceful, place. it doesn’t leave you feeling sad; just hopeful for the boys and their future.

millie’s long list of malex fics | Hallo Spaceboy by Anonymous

He dreamt his home planet belonged to another galaxy. It would make his calculations that much more speculative, of course, having to extrapolate beyond the Milky Way, but—

Mostly, he hoped he wasn’t from fucking Mars. Mars had already been thoroughly colonized by the terrestrial imagination, Michael thought.

But something in his chest ached when the Mars Rover Opportunity announced its battery was low and it was getting dark. He had a good notion of what that felt like.

(Scenes from a life. Michael, through a kaleidoscope.)

comment: it’s time for another anonymous fic, because they’re glorious. anonymous has this way of writing michael that i’m just in love with and is wholly consistent along all their fics; he’s raw and desperate and too much sometimes, but anonymous writes him like that unapologetically which just gets me in the heart every time. this one’s a series of snapshots through michael’s life, and there are some killer fucking lines in here that are like a gut-punch. i wanted to list them but i think i’ll leave them for you to discover in situ. also? fantastic title.