So this is what 33 looks like, and feels like too. Last year was one of cleansing, clearing, and creating. I’m making more art than ever, my finances aren’t all over the place anymore, and my family has come together. The flip side is now that I have this strong foundation, I’m opening doors that were previously closed. I’m being confronted with uglier pieces of my character mostly revolving around relationships. ⚡️ Validation often came from being desired for this or that, and even when I was single, I was still relying on someone else to make me feel good about myself. I don’t want to be someone that jumps from partner to partner. How can any of us really get to know ourselves, and more importantly, love ourselves if we don’t give ourselves the time and space to do so? ⚡️ The other day in a yoga class, a truth washed over me. The people I continue to bring into my life, the people I’ve loved and lost, the patterns that’s continue to keep me from what I really want – that’s all on me. I can’t blame my upbringing or “conditioning” on any of that. Where I am, who I am, who I’m with or not with, is because of my choices. This realization didn’t anger me, or pull me towards self-loathing. It felt more like a conversation with a mentor, someone that I trusted and knew was looking out for me. It was like being a kid again and getting a stern talking to from an adult that loves you. And then I realized laying there in savasana, that I was simultaneously both, the teacher and the student. Intellectually, I understood the idea of ‘you are your own best teacher’ but I hadn’t experienced it until now. It’s a good feeling. #keepmoving #humanheroes #getoutside #movementismedicine #movementformentalhealth #movebecauseyoucan https://www.instagram.com/p/B2U_dZQJKs9/?igshid=16l1nnar9x9w0
