Time to be honest. My name is Esrida and I am mother to this beautiful girl. I love almost everything about her, and I thank God for her every single day. She really brings joy into the lives of everyone she encounters. But let me tell you, it wasn’t always smooth sailing. I only felt a bond with her just before her 2nd birthday. Although I always loved her, it felt like loving her from behind a glass window. I could see her and hear her, but never really feel her. This of course wasn’t her fault, nor was it really my “fault” either. You see, I get overwhelmed very easily, and by the time of her birth I had too much to deal with. We were almost newly married, I just started a restaurant with my Mother, we were moving (spoiler alert – we moved 3 times before she turned 2), I had to heal from the C-section, still taught at the University, was finishing my master’s degree and general life in-between. The days felt too short, and because we were so busy with the restaurant and functions and me teaching that she was left with caretakers most of the time. I remember vividly how she was 3 months old and I spend the first afternoon with her, completely alone. It was weird, and it wasn’t supposed to be. I was her mother, but other people knew her better than me. I fought with myself a lot during that time, and in the end realised that only me could fix it. So I did. I made sure that we had a bond before the birth of her sister. And to this day we have our special rituals and things that only we do. I am thankful that I got the chance to fix it, and I will never again allow this type of separation. If you are in a similar position, if you were, or if you know of someone who is currently struggling, please share so that we can encourage each other, give advice, or simply a shoulder to cry on. #community #motherstogether #kids #love #A1 #joy #bond #bondwithbaby #lifestyleblogger #lifestyleblog #bloggersofinstagram #give #selfacceptance #overwhelm #anxiety #ipreview via @preview.app (at Pretoria, South Africa) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bxg_7wRFn_j/?igshid=wks6snyiy0xb
