#moth.text

does anyone ever miss specific alters. I miss Wade like crazy but I don't know if it's like missing him or missing the way we feel when he fronts

im majoring in cozy-wozy and minoring in comfy-womfy

I think making a discord server just for my alters was like the best decision I ever made bc we actually remember to use it and write shit down. its so helpful 100% recommend it

why is it so hard to make friends as a system. especially friends with other systems. maybe im just not meant to have friends

the worst thing about someone else fronting that no one talks about is when you finally front again after a week and cant remember if they brushed our teeth so you feel gross and nasty

eughhh I feel so bad :( I got mad at one of my alters for someone else misgendering us and he lowkey cried and I was just so fucking mean to him bc I was frustrated af. we were hanging out with my friends who have misgendered me a few times before but got a bit better about it and started using he/him more. My guy was fronting and he's nonbinary and prefers feminine titles (mom, woman, Mrs., etc) and so when we were deciding who was playing cards all the guys decided not to play so he somewhat jokingly said "I guess its just us ladies then!" so the entire rest of the night my friends started using she/her for me again and its just so frustrating. it wasnt his fault of course but I blamed him and I felt so badddd. he was on the phone with our gf and just randomly started tearing up and crying a bit bc he felt like i was mad at him 💔 like no pookie its not you im so sorry.

I hate feeling like im just not feeling enough half the time. like even when im upset its like all my emotions get poured into someone else's cup and im left with a couple of sips. I just want to feel big feelings like everyone else does even if it stresses me out instead of only feeling numb and depressed and worthless