#morgy lore

NAME: Morganaux de Roulemet

RESIDENCE: The Dzemael Manor, along with his personal manor post-Endwalker

TYPE OF BED: A double bed filled with plushies. ...Alternatively, his work desk, or a nice comfy sofa, or a rug, if it's fluffy enough.

NUMBER OF BLANKETS: One

NUMBER OF PILLOWS: One for his head, one or two for him to cling to. Or one book. A book can be a pillow if it wants to be.

TYPE OF CLOTHING: Frilly, floor-length nightgowns in pink, white, or cream, or whatever he wore that day.

DO THEY SLEEP WITH COMPANY?: Depends on the verse, but even if he has a partner to sleep with, he has times where he gets overstimulated and needs to sleep alone. (That, and he sometimes feels the need to wander at night for reasons relating to his trauma and wouldn't want to accidentally wake them up.)

DO THEY SLEEP BETTER WITH COMPANY?: It varies. In most circumstances, it makes him feel safer if he's sleeping with someone he trusts, knowing there's someone around to protect him if he needs it. But if he's feeling overstimulated by touch or someone's mere presence, he won't be able to sleep at all.

DOES IT MATTER WHERE THEY SLEEP?: Theoretically, he can fall asleep anywhere if he works himself to the point of exhaustion, which often happens while he's toiling away at an arcanima project. If he's choosing to sleep, he wants a private room to himself, and if that's not an option, he's going to find the most secluded spot he possibly can.

WHAT DO THEY DO IF THEY CANNOT FALL ASLEEP?: He'll go for a walk, find something to read, write down any ideas relating to his studies that might come to him, etc. Pretty much, he'll just do things he would normally do until he's feeling tired out enough to try sleeping again and won't just lie there waiting to fall asleep.

FREQUENT DREAMS, NIGHTMARES: His more pleasant recurring dreams involve him exploring unfamiliar parts of places he's been to before, although in reality, they don't actually exist. He's tried finding them and hasn't had luck so far, but he's not unhappy about it and considers these dreams to be adventures of their own. Some of his recurring nightmares can be found here.

DEEP SLUMBER OR NAPS: Deep slumber, but does enjoy the occasional nap if he's convinced to take one. But good luck with that if you're not dating him. This man is a chronic workaholic with too many tasks he wants to get done, and he often sees naps as an unnecessary indulgence.

WHEN DO THEY SLEEP: It varies. Sometimes, he tries to be kind to himself and sleep at a reasonable hours, but his anxiety and claustrophobia get in the way and he needs to wander. Other times, he's in the middle of working on a project and doesn't want to sleep until he's reached a certain milestone with it. And sometimes he just straight up passes out because he won't put his work down. If he's in a relationship, he'll pretty much try to sleep whenever he's asked, barring his need to wander. He just really needs someone to encourage him to take care of himself. :,)

WHAT COULD WAKE THEM UP: A lot of things, unless he passed out, but most notably even the smallest bit of light.

EARLY OR LATE RISER: Early. He likes to see the sunrise, but even more, he likes getting up and being productive. (Please help this man. He is suffering.)

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Most of Morganaux's worst nightmares are haunted by the cold, dark cells of Her Holy Body of Decency and all the others who were trapped there with them. In these dreams, he is not himself, but rather the child he once was— innocent, helpless, and begging for someone to free him. But no matter how much he pleads and tries to get their attention, no one seems to even notice that he's there, nor do they seem to notice the walls slowly closing in on them, pushing them closer and closer together until there's no room for him to breathe.

Other times, he will find himself in the Hell of Ice, where the lustful are punished for their sins. Even in canons where he's never been involved with anyone, he has recurring nightmares that his thoughts alone would be enough to convince a goddess he does not believe in to cast him there for all eternity. He lost his faith in Halone a long time ago, but it doesn't stop him from fearing Her wrath.

I'm putting the rest of this under a read more, since it's pretty heavy.

Content warning for attempted sexual abuse.

soft fresh green

Nice breeze, bare feet and freshly cut grass. Your love is a lighthearted hope for the future. It's protecting your eyes from the sun but enjoying the light rays still, it's laying on the grass and feeling it tickle your neck. You look to the side and they look back at you, full of hope and plans too. You plan together and laugh all day and your sunburn will feel like them. Your love is delicate, hesitant. A well curated binder full of collages for a future you can't be sure will come, but you keep going, you keep planning, you keep squinting at the sun and smiling, and running your hands through the grass so it will smell better. You keep holding onto the bright sky even as the sunsets, even as the starry night stares back. But you keep on holding, you keep on dreaming, you close your eyes and feel the sun on your skin and convince yourself that the sunburn is good, it's something to hold on to, just makes it linger a bit longer. Your love is a lighthearted hope for the future. It's sweet and wonderful and it keeps love alive, makes the world a better place. You run your hands through the grass, clench your fingers tighter and keep making plans. And I can only thank you and hope I can learn to love like you someday.

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the first mate

you are immeasurably loyal, even when everyone tells you that you should give up and give in, that you have done more than enough. you know people’s needs almost instantaneously, leading and looking after others whilst shying away from the spotlight; you love with your hands more than you can with your words. you have loved your captain since they had both eyes and both hands, when the twinkle in their eye was unmatched even by the northern star. perhaps you could do to set boundaries between you and what your captain asks of you--first mates are the first to embitter. you don’t remember a time you have not been on the ship, giving yourself over more than you’ve got as you follow your captain into every endeavor and battle. but what you want is to crawl back onto shore, into the shade of a leafy tree in the soft sand, and to rest your weary bones. you ache for a home that will never truly revive you. one day, your captain will thank you for everything you’ve done for them; they will cup your hand in theirs and tell you that they will take care of you now.

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🍎 How do they flirt with the same sex?

Morganaux:

He... Kind of doesn't flirt, haha. He's the type to suppress his romantic feelings rather than acting on them, so instead, he just tries his best to act normal around them while acting the exact opposite of normal. He fumbles his words, seems distracted, and may even appear ill, and he will keep this up for months, even years, and it's often painfully obvious. He is terribly insecure about making his friendships awkward if his love is unrequited, or he might second-guess himself if he's truly attracted to someone or just having another short-lived crush.

For him to actually flirt with someone, he's first going to talk it over with a few trusted friends first. Or, rather, he's going to talk it over with them many times. If he's feeling particularly brave, he might consult an Ishgardian etiquette book on how to properly court someone, but since he typically doesn't fall for people who would understand the subtle art of High House flirting, it doesn't work.

He'll then spend a few weeks, or a few months, or however long trying to figure out an appropriate way to romance them, like making them a fitting gift or just outright confessing his love, or both. Then, he'll delay putting that plan into action for another few weeks, likely while his friends are threatening to tell his crush how he feels if he doesn't go and do it himself already.

But by the point he actually gets that far, it's more likely that his crush will either catch on and call him on it, forcing him to talk about it, or many, many years will pass and his crush will turn into a primal and die. He's very good at romance, as you can see.

He may also "flirt" subconsciously by being extra helpful toward his crush, or taking extra care when it comes to doing things for them. But in his mind, he insists it's just him being a good friend, because good friends deserve the extra effort, and not because feelings are involved!

Olivine:

Unlike her son, Olivine doesn't shy away from her feelings and will make them known. Flower language is her love language of choice, and she'll make certain that the object of her affection knows the meaning behind each flower she gives them. When courting her wife, she would often steal the prettiest flowers she found in other nobles' gardens, giving them to her because they made her think of her.

She'll make her presence known, spending a lot of time around the one she's fallen for, helping them out whenever she can and finding plenty of opportunities for their hands to "accidentally" touch, or for their gazes to "accidentally" meet. Sometimes, she'll accidentally leave behind a precious belonging for the other woman to find, like a ring or an embroidered handkerchief so she'll have an excuse to come retrieve it, or better yet, she might receive a visit from them.

🍏 How do they react to flirting from the same sex?

Morganaux:

Most of the time, it goes over his head entirely. He thinks they're just being nice to him and won't think anything of it. But if it's extremely obvious, he'll blush and his ears will start to wiggle. Sometimes, he might find a polite reason to excuse himself if he's particularly flustered, even if he wants that sort of attention.

It's a different story entirely if that flirting comes from an Ishgardian gentleman. He's all too familiar with it as the resident celebrity of the Holy See post-Heavensward, and his brain is in a completely different mode when he's back home. Plus, the romantic etiquette in his homeland is unique and something he actually understands, so he's more likely to notice when someone's into him and won't be caught off-guard by it. He'll be polite and go along with it in most cases, even if he's not interested because it's the polite and proper thing to do. But in the rare instance he finds an Ishgardian man to be interesting and open-minded enough to be worthy of his time, he might start getting a little flustered, but he'll be brave enough to at least try to reciprocate. (key word is try.)

Olivine:

🍓 Have they ever fallen for someone straight?

Yes, but that's mostly because Morganaux develops short-lived crushes on just about every good-looking man he meets who is nice to him. (Sometimes even those who aren't so nice to him.) Statistically, at least some of them have to be heterosexual!

But in terms of fully, truly falling in love with someone, he hasn't.

🍇Do they hang out with a lot of other LGBT people? Is this a conscious decision?

Although he does have training as a samurai, he uses an aetherial sword that does not cut through flesh, but instead his enemy's aether, cutting off its flow until they can't fight back. The same applies for dancer (when he finally gets around to learning it in-character) too. There's been a few instances where he's made exceptions, but he'd really rather not talk about it. He is a soft, gentle healer who has never willingly hurt anyone ever in his entire life. :)

Pro: Morganaux is a fiercely devoted partner and will move heavens and earth for the ones he loves. He will be their number one fan, do his best to learn about and support their interests, and will quite literally kill for them. While he may seem skittish about romance, once he's actually IN a relationship, he makes sure his affection WILL be felt.

Con: His lack of experience in relationships, obsession with faerietales, and Ishgardian upbringing gives him a rather naïve view of how love is supposed to work. Perhaps the worst con of dating him is that he doesn't like to voice any negative thoughts to or about his partner, even if it might hurt their relationship if left unresolved.

He thinks it's wrong for him to sometimes feel annoyed by his partner(s) or to disagree with them, and instead keeps it bottled up, sometimes to the point he might start acting passive aggressive without meaning to, all while refusing to admit he's upset. After all, faerietales only show the fun and pretty part of relationships, and High House couples always have to keep relationship problems well-hidden so it doesn't affect their reputation.